‘You have been a long time,’ she said, ‘without coming here.Is your profession really so engaging and interesting as to absorb your whole attention?I ask because I always want to be informed, when I am ignorant. Is it really, though?’
I replied that I liked it well enough, but that I certainly could not claim so much for it.
‘Oh!I am glad to know that, because I always like to be put right when I am wrong,’ said Rosa Dartle. ‘You mean it is a little dry, perhaps?’
‘Well,’ I replied; ‘perhaps it was a little dry.’
‘Oh!and that’s a reason why you want relief and change--excitement and all that?’ said she. ‘Ah!very true!But isn’t it a little--Eh?--for him; I don’t mean you?’
A quick glance of her eye towards the spot where Steerforth was walking,with his mother leaning on his arm, showed me whom she meant; but beyond that, I was quite lost. And I looked so, I have no doubt.
‘Don’t it--I don’t say that it does, mind I want to know--don’t it rather engross him?Don’t it make him, perhaps, a little more remiss than usual in his visits to his blindly-doting--eh?’ With another quick glance at them, and such a glance at me as seemed to look into my innermost thoughts.
‘Miss Dartle,’ I returned, ‘pray do not think--’
‘I don’t!’ she said. ‘Oh dear me, don’t suppose that I think anything!I am not suspicious. I only ask a question. I don’t state any opinion.I want to found an opinion on what you tell me. Then, it’s not so?Well!I am very glad to know it.’
‘It certainly is not the fact,’ said I, perplexed,‘that I am accountable for Steerforth’s having been away from home longer than usual--if he has been:which I really don’t know at this moment, unless I understand it from you.I have not seen him this long while, until last night.’
‘No?’
‘Indeed, Miss Dartle, no!’
As she looked full at me, I saw her face grow sharper and paler,and the marks of the old wound lengthen out until it cut through the disfigured lip,and deep into the nether lip, and slanted down the face.There was something positively awful to me in this, and in the brightness of her eyes, as she said, looking fixedly at me:
‘What is he doing?’
I repeated the words, more to myself than her, being so amazed.
‘What is he doing?’ she said, with an eagerness that seemed enough to consume her like a fire.‘In what is that man assisting him, who never looks at me without an inscrutable falsehood in his eyes?If you are honourable and faithful, I don’t ask you to betray your friend.I ask you only to tell me, is it anger, is it hatred, is it pride, is it restlessness,is it some wild fancy, is it love, what is it, that is leading him?’
‘Miss Dartle,’ I returned, ‘how shall I tell you, so that you will believe me,that I know of nothing in Steerforth different from what there was when I first came here?I can think of nothing. I firmly believe there is nothing. I hardly understand even what you mean.’
As she still stood looking fixedly at me, a twitching or throbbing,from which I could not dissociate the idea of pain, came into that cruel mark;and lifted up the corner of her lip as if with scorn, or with a pity that despised its object.She put her hand upon it hurriedly--a hand so thin and delicate,that when I had seen her hold it up before the fire to shade her face,I had compared it in my thoughts to fine porcelain--and saying, in a quick, fierce, passionate way, ‘I swear you to secrecy about this!’ said not a word more.
Mrs. Steerforth was particularly happy in her son’s society, and Steerforth was, on this occasion,particularly attentive and respectful to her. It was very interesting to me to see them together,not only on account of their mutual affection,but because of the strong personal resemblance between them,and the manner in which what was haughty or impetuous in him was softened by age and sex, in her,to a gracious dignity. I thought, more than once,that it was well no serious cause of division had ever come between them;or two such natures--I ought rather to express it,two such shades of the same nature--might have been harder to reconcile than the two extremest opposites in creation.The idea did not originate in my own discernment, I am bound to confess, but in a speech of Rosa Dartle’s.
She said at dinner:
‘Oh, but do tell me, though, somebody, because I have been thinking about it all day, and I want to know.’
‘You want to know what, Rosa?’ returned Mrs. Steerforth. ‘Pray, pray, Rosa, do not be mysterious.’
‘Mysterious!’ she cried. ‘Oh!really?Do you consider me so?’
‘Do I constantly entreat you,’ said Mrs. Steerforth, ‘to speak plainly, in your own natural manner?’
‘Oh!then this is not my natural manner?’ she rejoined. ‘Now you must really bear with me, because I ask for information. We never know ourselves.’
‘It has become a second nature,’ said Mrs. Steerforth, without any displeasure; ‘but I remember,--and so must you, I think,--when your manner was different, Rosa; when it was not so guarded, and was more trustful.’
‘I am sure you are right,’ she returned; ‘and so it is that bad habits grow upon one!Really?Less guarded and more trustful?How can I, imperceptibly, have changed, I wonder!Well, that’s very odd!I must study to regain my former self.’
‘I wish you would,’ said Mrs. Steerforth, with a smile.
‘Oh!I really will, you know!’ she answered. ‘I will learn frankness from--let me see--from James.’
‘You cannot learn frankness, Rosa,’ said Mrs.Steerforth quickly--for there was always some effect of sarcasm in what Rosa Dartle said,though it was said, as this was, in the most unconscious manner in the world--‘in a better school.’
‘That I am sure of,’ she answered, with uncommon fervour. ‘If I am sure of anything, of course, you know, I am sure of that.’
Mrs. Steerforth appeared to me to regret having been a little nettled; for she presently said, in a kind tone:
‘Well, my dear Rosa, we have not heard what it is that you want to be satisfied about?’
‘That I want to be satisfied about?’ she replied, with provoking coldness. ‘Oh!It was only whether people, who are like each other in their moral constitution--is that the phrase?’
‘It’s as good a phrase as another,’ said Steerforth.
‘Thank you:--whether people, who are like each other in their moral constitution,are in greater danger than people not so circumstanced,supposing any serious cause of variance to arise between them, of being divided angrily and deeply?’
‘I should say yes,’ said Steerforth.
‘Should you?’ she retorted. ‘Dear me!Supposing then, for instance--any unlikely thing will do for a supposition--that you and your mother were to have a serious quarrel. ’
‘My dear Rosa,’ interposed Mrs. Steerforth, laughing good-naturedly, ‘suggest some other supposition!James and I know our duty to each other better, I pray Heaven!’
‘Oh!’ said Miss Dartle, nodding her head thoughtfully. ‘To be sure. That would prevent it?Why, of course it would. Exactly. Now, I am glad I have been so foolish as to put the case,for it is so very good to know that your duty to each other would prevent it!Thank you very much.’
One other little circumstance connected with Miss Dartle I must not omit;for I had reason to remember it thereafter, when all the irremediable past was rendered plain.During the whole of this day, but especially from this period of it,Steerforth exerted himself with his utmost skill, and that was with his utmost ease,to charm this singular creature into a pleasant and pleased companion. That he should succeed,was no matter of surprise to me. That she should struggle against the fascinating influence of his delightful art--delightful nature I thought it then--did not surprise me either; for I knew that she was sometimes jaundiced and perverse. I saw her features and her manner slowly change; I saw her look at him with growing admiration; I saw her try, more and more faintly, but always angrily, as if she condemned a weakness in herself, to resist the captivating power that he possessed; and finally, I saw her sharp glance soften, and her smile become quite gentle, and I ceased to be afraid of her as I had really been all day, and we all sat about the fire, talking and laughing together, with as little reserve as if we had been children.
Whether it was because we had sat there so long,or because Steerforth was resolved not to lose the advantage he had gained, I do not know;but we did not remain in the dining-room more than five minutes after her departure.‘She is playing her harp,’ said Steerforth, softly, at the drawing-room door,‘and nobody but my mother has heard her do that, I believe, these three years.’ He said it with a curious smile, which was gone directly;and we went into the room and found her alone.
‘Don’t get up,’ said Steerforth (which she had already done)’ my dear Rosa, don’t!Be kind for once, and sing us an Irish song.’
‘What do you care for an Irish song?’ she returned.
‘Much!’ said Steerforth. ‘Much more than for any other. Here is Daisy, too, loves music from his soul. Sing us an Irish song, Rosa!and let me sit and listen as I used to do.’
He did not touch her, or the chair from which she had risen, but sat himself near the harp.She stood beside it for some little while, in a curious way,going through the motion of playing it with her right hand, but not sounding it.At length she sat down, and drew it to her with one sudden action, and played and sang.
I don’t know what it was, in her touch or voice,that made that song the most unearthly I have ever heard in my life, or can imagine.There was something fearful in the reality of it. It was as if it had never been written,or set to music, but sprung out of passion within her;which found imperfect utterance in the low sounds of her voice,and crouched again when all was still. I was dumb when she leaned beside the harp again,playing it, but not sounding it, with her right hand.
A minute more, and this had roused me from my trance:--Steerforth had left his seat,and gone to her, and had put his arm laughingly about her, and had said, ‘Come, Rosa,for the future we will love each other very much!’ And she had struck him, and had thrown him off with the fury of a wild cat, and had burst out of the room.
‘What is the matter with Rosa?’ said Mrs. Steerforth, coming in.
‘She has been an angel, mother,’ returned Steerforth, ‘for a little while;and has run into the opposite extreme, since, by way of compensation.’
‘You should be careful not to irritate her, James. Her temper has been soured, remember, and ought not to be tried.’
Rosa did not come back; and no other mention was made of her,until I went with Steerforth into his room to say Good night. Then he laughed about her,and asked me if I had ever seen such a fierce little piece of incomprehensibility.
I expressed as much of my astonishment as was then capable of expression,and asked if he could guess what it was that she had taken so much amiss, so suddenly.
‘Oh, Heaven knows,’ said Steerforth. ‘Anything you like--or nothing!I told you she took everything, herself included, to a grindstone, and sharpened it.She is an edge-tool, and requires great care in dealing with. She is always dangerous. Good night!’
‘Good night!’ said I, ‘my dear Steerforth!I shall be gone before you wake in the morning. Good night!’
He was unwilling to let me go; and stood, holding me out, with a hand on each of my shoulders, as he had done in my own room.
‘Daisy,’ he said, with a smile--‘for though that’s not the name your godfathers and godmothers gave you,it’s the name I like best to call you by--and I wish, I wish, I wish, you could give it to me!’
‘Why so I can, if I choose,’ said I.
‘Daisy, if anything should ever separate us, you must think of me at my best, old boy. Come!Let us make that bargain. Think of me at my best, if circumstances should ever part us!’
‘You have no best to me, Steerforth,’ said I, ‘and no worst. You are always equally loved, and cherished in my heart.’
So much compunction for having ever wronged him, even by a shapeless thought, did I feel within me,that the confession of having done so was rising to my lips.But for the reluctance I had to betray the confidence of Agnes,but for my uncertainty how to approach the subject with no risk of doing so,it would have reached them before he said, ‘God bless you, Daisy, and good night!’ In my doubt, it did NOT reach them; and we shook hands, and we parted.
I was up with the dull dawn, and, having dressed as quietly as I could, looked into his room.He was fast asleep; lying, easily, with his head upon his arm, as I had often seen him lie at school.
The time came in its season, and that was very soon,when I almost wondered that nothing troubled his repose, as I looked at him.But he slept--let me think of him so again--as I had often seen him sleep at school; and thus,in this silent hour, I left him. --Never more, oh God forgive you, Steerforth!to touch that passive hand in love and friendship. Never, never more!
CHAPTER 30. A LOSS
I got down to Yarmouth in the evening, and went to the inn.I knew that Peggotty’s spare room--my room--was likely to have occupation enough in a little while,if that great Visitor, before whose presence all the living must give place,were not already in the house; so I betook myself to the inn, and dined there, and engaged my bed.
It was ten o’clock when I went out. Many of the shops were shut, and the town was dull.When I came to Omer and Joram’s, I found the shutters up, but the shop door standing open.As I could obtain a perspective view of Mr. Omer inside, smoking his pipe by the parlour door, I entered, and asked him how he was.
‘Why, bless my life and soul!’ said Mr. Omer, ‘how do you find yourself?Take a seat.---Smoke not disagreeable, I hope?’
‘By no means,’ said I. ‘I like it--in somebody else’s pipe.’
‘What, not in your own, eh?’ Mr. Omer returned, laughing. ‘All the better, sir. Bad habit for a young man. Take a seat. I smoke, myself, for the asthma.’
Mr. Omer had made room for me, and placed a chair. He now sat down again very much out of breath,gasping at his pipe as if it contained a supply of that necessary, without which he must perish.
‘I am sorry to have heard bad news of Mr. Barkis,’ said I.
Mr. Omer looked at me, with a steady countenance, and shook his head.
‘Do you know how he is tonight?’ I asked.
‘The very question I should have put to you, sir,’ returned Mr. Omer, ‘but on account of delicacy.It’s one of the drawbacks of our line of business. When a party’s ill, we can’t ask how the party is.’
The difficulty had not occurred to me; though I had had my apprehensions too, when I went in,of hearing the old tune. On its being mentioned, I recognized it, however, and said as much.
‘Yes, yes, you understand,’ said Mr. Omer, nodding his head. ‘We dursn’t do it. Bless you,it would be a shock that the generality of parties mightn’t recover,to say “Omer and Joram’s compliments, and how do you find yourself this morning?”--or this afternoon--as it may be.’
Mr. Omer and I nodded at each other, and Mr. Omer recruited his wind by the aid of his pipe.
‘It’s one of the things that cut the trade off from attentions they could often wish to show,’ said Mr. Omer. ‘Take myself. If I have known Barkis a year, to move to as he went by,I have known him forty years. But I can’t go and say, “how is he?”’
I felt it was rather hard on Mr. Omer, and I told him so.
‘I’m not more self-interested, I hope, than another man,’ said Mr. Omer. ‘Look at me!My wind may fail me at any moment, and it ain’t likely that, to my own knowledge,I’d be self-interested under such circumstances. I say it ain’t likely,in a man who knows his wind will go, when it DOES go, as if a pair of bellows was cut open;and that man a grandfather,’ said Mr. Omer.
I said, ‘Not at all.’
‘It ain’t that I complain of my line of business,’ said Mr. Omer. ‘It ain’t that.Some good and some bad goes, no doubt, to all callings. What I wish is,that parties was brought up stronger-minded.’
Mr. Omer, with a very complacent and amiable face, took several puffs in silence; and then said, resuming his first point:
‘Accordingly we’re obleeged, in ascertaining how Barkis goes on, to limit ourselves to Em’ly.She knows what our real objects are, and she don’t have any more alarms or suspicions about us,than if we was so many lambs. Minnie and Joram have just stepped down to the house,in fact (she’s there, after hours, helping her aunt a bit), to ask her how he is tonight;and if you was to please to wait till they come back, they’d give you full partic’lers. Will you take something?A glass of srub and water, now?I smoke on srub and water, myself,’ said Mr. Omer, taking up his glass,‘because it’s considered softening to the passages,by which this troublesome breath of mine gets into action. But, Lord bless you,’ said Mr. Omer,huskily, ‘it ain’t the passages that’s out of order!“Give me breath enough,” said I to my daughter Minnie, “and I’ll find passages, my dear.”’
He really had no breath to spare, and it was very alarming to see him laugh.When he was again in a condition to be talked to, I thanked him for the proffered refreshment,which I declined, as I had just had dinner; and, observing that I would wait,since he was so good as to invite me, until his daughter and his son-in-law came back, I inquired how little Emily was?
‘Well, sir,’ said Mr. Omer, removing his pipe, that he might rub his chin: ‘I tell you truly,I shall be glad when her marriage has taken place.’
‘Why so?’ I inquired.
‘Well, she’s unsettled at present,’ said Mr. Omer. ‘It ain’t that she’s not as pretty as ever,for she’s prettier--I do assure you, she is prettier. It ain’t that she don’t work as well as ever,for she does. She WAS worth any six, and she IS worth any six. But somehow she wants heart.If you understand,’ said Mr. Omer, after rubbing his chin again, and smoking a little,‘what I mean in a general way by the expression, “A long pull, and a strong pull,and a pull altogether, my hearties, hurrah!” I should say to you, that that was--in a general way--what I miss in Em’ly.’
Mr. Omer’s face and manner went for so much, that I could conscientiously nod my head,as divining his meaning. My quickness of apprehension seemed to please him, and he went on:‘Now I consider this is principally on account of her being in an unsettled state, you see.We have talked it over a good deal, her uncle and myself, and her sweetheart and myself,after business; and I consider it is principally on account of her being unsettled.You must always recollect of Em’ly,’ said Mr. Omer, shaking his head gently,‘that she’s a most extraordinary affectionate little thing. The proverb says,“You can’t make a silk purse out of a sow’s ear.” Well, I don’t know about that.I rather think you may, if you begin early in life. She has made a home out of that old boat, sir, that stone and marble couldn’t beat.’
‘I am sure she has!’ said I.
‘To see the clinging of that pretty little thing to her uncle,’ said Mr. Omer;‘to see the way she holds on to him, tighter and tighter, and closer and closer, every day,is to see a sight. Now, you know, there’s a struggle going on when that’s the case.Why should it be made a longer one than is needful?’
I listened attentively to the good old fellow, and acquiesced, with all my heart, in what he said.
‘Therefore, I mentioned to them,’ said Mr. Omer, in a comfortable, easy-going tone, ‘this. I said,“Now, don’t consider Em’ly nailed down in point of time, at all. Make it your own time.Her services have been more valuable than was supposed;her learning has been quicker than was supposed;Omer and Joram can run their pen through what remains; and she’s free when you wish.If she likes to make any little arrangement, afterwards,in the way of doing any little thing for us at home, very well. If she don’t, very well still.We’re no losers, anyhow.” For--don’t you see,’ said Mr. Omer, touching me with his pipe,‘it ain’t likely that a man so short of breath as myself, and a grandfather too,would go and strain points with a little bit of a blue-eyed blossom, like her?’
‘Not at all, I am certain,’ said I.
‘Not at all!You’re right!’ said Mr. Omer. ‘Well, sir, her cousin--you know it’s a cousin she’s going to be married to?’
‘Oh yes,’ I replied. ‘I know him well.’
‘Of course you do,’ said Mr. Omer. ‘Well, sir!Her cousin being, as it appears, in good work, and well to do,thanked me in a very manly sort of manner for this (conducting himself altogether, I must say,in a way that gives me a high opinion of him),and went and took as comfortable a little house as you or I could wish to clap eyes on.That little house is now furnished right through, as neat and complete as a doll’s parlour;and but for Barkis’s illness having taken this bad turn, poor fellow,they would have been man and wife--I dare say, by this time. As it is, there’s a postponement.’
‘And Emily, Mr. Omer?’ I inquired. ‘Has she become more settled?’
‘Why that, you know,’ he returned, rubbing his double chin again, ‘can’t naturally be expected.The prospect of the change and separation, and all that, is, as one may say,close to her and far away from her, both at once. Barkis’s death needn’t put it off much,but his lingering might. Anyway, it’s an uncertain state of matters, you see.’
‘I see,’ said I.
‘Consequently,’ pursued Mr. Omer, ‘Em’ly’s still a little down, and a little fluttered; perhaps,upon the whole, she’s more so than she was.Every day she seems to get fonder and fonder of her uncle, and more loth to part from all of us.A kind word from me brings the tears into her eyes;and if you was to see her with my daughter Minnie’s little girl, you’d never forget it. Bless my heart alive!’ said Mr. Omer, pondering, ‘how she loves that child!’
Having so favourable an opportunity, it occurred to me to ask Mr. Omer,before our conversation should be interrupted by the return of his daughter and her husband, whether he knew anything of Martha.
‘Ah!’ he rejoined, shaking his head, and looking very much dejected. ‘No good. A sad story, sir,however you come to know it. I never thought there was harm in the girl.I wouldn’t wish to mention it before my daughter Minnie--for she’d take me up directly--but I never did. None of us ever did.’
Mr. Omer, hearing his daughter’s footstep before I heard it, touched me with his pipe,and shut up one eye, as a caution. She and her husband came in immediately afterwards.
Their report was, that Mr. Barkis was ‘as bad as bad could be’; that he was quite unconscious;and that Mr. Chillip had mournfully said in the kitchen, on going away just now,that the College of Physicians, the College of Surgeons, and Apothecaries’ Hall,if they were all called in together, couldn’t help him. He was past both Colleges, Mr.Chillip said, and the Hall could only poison him.
Hearing this, and learning that Mr. Peggotty was there, I determined to go to the house at once.I bade good night to Mr. Omer, and to Mr. and Mrs. Joram; and directed my steps thither,with a solemn feeling, which made Mr. Barkis quite a new and different creature.
My low tap at the door was answered by Mr. Peggotty.He was not so much surprised to see me as I had expected. I remarked this in Peggotty, too,when she came down; and I have seen it since; and I think,in the expectation of that dread surprise, all other changes and surprises dwindle into nothing.
I shook hands with Mr. Peggotty, and passed into the kitchen, while he softly closed the door.Little Emily was sitting by the fire, with her hands before her face. Ham was standing near her.
We spoke in whispers; listening, between whiles, for any sound in the room above.I had not thought of it on the occasion of my last visit, but how strange it was to me, now, to miss Mr. Barkis out of the kitchen!
‘This is very kind of you, Mas’r Davy,’ said Mr. Peggotty.
‘It’s oncommon kind,’ said Ham.
‘Em’ly, my dear,’ cried Mr. Peggotty. ‘See here!Here’s Mas’r Davy come!What, cheer up, pretty!Not a wured to Mas’r Davy?’
There was a trembling upon her, that I can see now. The coldness of her hand when I touched it,I can feel yet. Its only sign of animation was to shrink from mine;and then she glided from the chair, and creeping to the other side of her uncle, bowed herself,silently and trembling still, upon his breast.
‘It’s such a loving art,’ said Mr. Peggotty, smoothing her rich hair with his great hard hand,‘that it can’t abear the sorrer of this. It’s nat’ral in young folk, Mas’r Davy,when they’re new to these here trials, and timid, like my little bird,--it’s nat’ral.’
She clung the closer to him, but neither lifted up her face, nor spoke a word.
‘It’s getting late, my dear,’ said Mr. Peggotty, ‘and here’s Ham come fur to take you home. Theer!Go along with t’other loving art!What’ Em’ly?Eh, my pretty?’
The sound of her voice had not reached me, but he bent his head as if he listened to her, and then said:
‘Let you stay with your uncle?Why, you doen’t mean to ask me that!Stay with your uncle, Moppet?When your husband that’ll be so soon, is here fur to take you home?Now a person wouldn’t think it, fur to see this little thing alongside a rough-weather chap like me,’ said Mr. Peggotty, looking round at both of us, with infinite pride;‘but the sea ain’t more salt in it than she has fondness in her for her uncle--a foolish little Em’ly!’
‘Em’ly’s in the right in that, Mas’r Davy!’ said Ham. ‘Lookee here!As Em’ly wishes of it, and as she’s hurried and frightened, like, besides,I’ll leave her till morning. Let me stay too!’
‘No, no,’ said Mr. Peggotty. ‘You doen’t ought--a married man like you--or what’s as good--to take and hull away a day’s work.And you doen’t ought to watch and work both. That won’t do. You go home and turn in.You ain’t afeerd of Em’ly not being took good care on, I know.’
Ham yielded to this persuasion, and took his hat to go.Even when he kissed her--and I never saw him approach her,but I felt that nature had given him the soul of a gentleman--she seemed to cling closer to her uncle,even to the avoidance of her chosen husband. I shut the door after him,that it might cause no disturbance of the quiet that prevailed; and when I turned back, I found Mr. Peggotty still talking to her.
‘Now, I’m a going upstairs to tell your aunt as Mas’r Davy’s here, and that’ll cheer her up a bit,’ he said. ‘Sit ye down by the fire, the while, my dear, and warm those mortal cold hands.You doen’t need to be so fearsome, and take on so much. What?You’ll go along with me?--Well!come along with me--come!If her uncle was turned out of house and home, and forced to lay down in a dyke, Mas’r Davy,’ said Mr. Peggotty, with no less pride than before, ‘it’s my belief she’d go along with him, now!But there’ll be someone else, soon,--someone else, soon, Em’ly!’
Afterwards, when I went upstairs, as I passed the door of my little chamber, which was dark,I had an indistinct impression of her being within it, cast down upon the floor. But,whether it was really she, or whether it was a confusion of the shadows in the room, I don’t know now.
I had leisure to think, before the kitchen fire, of pretty little Emily’s dread of death--which,added to what Mr. Omer had told me, I took to be the cause of her being so unlike herself--and I had leisure,before Peggotty came down, even to think more leniently of the weakness of it:as I sat counting the ticking of the clock, and deepening my sense of the solemn hush around me.Peggotty took me in her arms, and blessed and thanked me over and over again for being such a comfort to her (that was what she said) in her distress.She then entreated me to come upstairs, sobbing that Mr. Barkis had always liked me and admired me;that he had often talked of me, before he fell into a stupor; and that she believed,in case of his coming to himself again, he would brighten up at sight of me,if he could brighten up at any earthly thing.
The probability of his ever doing so, appeared to me, when I saw him, to be very small.He was lying with his head and shoulders out of bed, in an uncomfortable attitude,half resting on the box which had cost him so much pain and trouble. I learned, that,when he was past creeping out of bed to open it,and past assuring himself of its safety by means of the divining rod I had seen him use,he had required to have it placed on the chair at the bed-side,where he had ever since embraced it, night and day. His arm lay on it now.Time and the world were slipping from beneath him, but the box was there;and the last words he had uttered were (in an explanatory tone) ‘Old clothes!’
‘Barkis, my dear!’ said Peggotty, almost cheerfully: bending over him,while her brother and I stood at the bed’s foot. ‘Here’s my dear boy--my dear boy, Master Davy, who brought us together, Barkis!That you sent messages by, you know!Won’t you speak to Master Davy?’
He was as mute and senseless as the box, from which his form derived the only expression it had.
‘He’s a going out with the tide,’ said Mr. Peggotty to me, behind his hand.
My eyes were dim and so were Mr. Peggotty’s; but I repeated in a whisper, ‘With the tide?’
‘People can’t die, along the coast,’ said Mr. Peggotty, ‘except when the tide’s pretty nigh out.They can’t be born, unless it’s pretty nigh in--not properly born, till flood.He’s a going out with the tide. It’s ebb at half-arter three, slack water half an hour.If he lives till it turns, he’ll hold his own till past the flood, and go out with the next tide.’