_26 September._--Truly there is no such thing as finality.Not a week since I said “Finis,” and yet here I am starting fresh again,or rather going on with the same record.Until this afternoon I had no cause to think of what is done.Renfield had become, to all intents,as sane as he ever was.He was already well ahead with his fly business;and he had just started in the spider line also;so he had not been of any trouble to me.I had a letter from Arthur, written on Sunday,and from it I gather that he is bearing up wonderfully well.Quincey Morris is with him, and that is much of a help,for he himself is a bubbling well of good spirits.Quincey wrote me a line too,and from him I hear that Arthur is beginning to recover something of his old buoyancy; so as to them all my mind is at rest. As for myself, I was settling down to my work with the enthusiasm which I used to have for it, so that I might fairly have said that the wound which poor Lucy left on me was becoming cicatrised. Everything is, however, now reopened; and what is to be the end God only knows. I have an idea that Van Helsing thinks he knows, too, but he will only let out enough at a time to whet curiosity. He went to Exeter yesterday, and stayed there all night. To-day he came back, and almost bounded into the room at about half-past five o’clock, and thrust last night’s “Westminster Gazette” into my hand.
“What do you think of that?” he asked as he stood back and folded his arms.
I looked over the paper,for I really did not know what he meant;but he took it from me and pointed out a paragraph about children being decoyed away at Hampstead. It did not convey much to me, until I reached a passage where it described small punctured wounds on their throats. An idea struck me, and I looked up. “Well?” he said.
“It is like poor Lucy’s.”
“And what do you make of it?”
“Simply that there is some cause in common.Whatever it was that injured her has injured them.” I did not quite understand his answer:--
“That is true indirectly, but not directly.”
“How do you mean, Professor?” I asked. I was a little inclined to take his seriousness lightly--for,after all, four days of rest and freedom from burning,harrowing anxiety does help to restore one’s spirits--but when I saw his face,it sobered me. Never,even in the midst of our despair about poor Lucy,had he looked more stern.
“Tell me!” I said. “I can hazard no opinion.I do not know what to think,and I have no data on which to found a conjecture.”
“Do you mean to tell me, friend John,that you have no suspicion as to what poor Lucy died of;not after all the hints given, not only by events, but by me?”
“Of nervous prostration following on great loss or waste of blood. ”
“And how the blood lost or waste?” I shook my head. He stepped over and sat down beside me, and went on:--
“You are clever man, friend John; you reason well,and your wit is bold; but you are too prejudiced.You do not let your eyes see nor your ears hear,and that which is outside your daily life is not of account to you.Do you not think that there are things which you cannot understand,and yet which are; that some people see things that others cannot?But there are things old and new which must not be contemplate by men’s eyes,because they know--or think they know--some things which other men have told them. Ah, it is the fault of our science that it wants to explain all; and if it explain not, then it says there is nothing to explain. But yet we see around us every day the growth of new beliefs, which think themselves new; and which are yet but the old, which pretend to be young--like the fine ladies at the opera. I suppose now you do not believe in corporeal transference. No?Nor in materialisation. No?Nor in astral bodies. No?Nor in the reading of thought. No?Nor in hypnotism----”
“Yes,” I said. “Charcot has proved that pretty well.” He smiled as he went on:“Then you are satisfied as to it. Yes?And of course then you understand how it act,and can follow the mind of the great Charcot--alas that he is no more!--into the very soul of the patient that he influence. No?Then, friend John, am I to take it that you simply accept fact,and are satisfied to let from premise to conclusion be a blank?No?Then tell me--for I am student of the brain--how you accept the hypnotism and reject the thought reading. Let me tell you, my friend, that there are things done to-day in electrical science which would have been deemed unholy by the very men who discovered electricity--who would themselves not so long before have been burned as wizards. There are always mysteries in life. Why was it that Methuselah lived nine hundred years, and ‘Old Parr’ one hundred and sixty-nine, and yet that poor Lucy, with four men’s blood in her poor veins, could not live even one day?For, had she live one more day, we could have save her.Do you know all the mystery of life and death?Do you know the altogether of comparative anatomy and can say wherefore the qualities of brutes are in some men, and not in others?Can you tell me why,when other spiders die small and soon,that one great spider lived for centuries in the tower of the old Spanish church and grew and grew, till, on descending, he could drink the oil of all the church lamps?Can you tell me why in the Pampas, ay and elsewhere,there are bats that come at night and open the veins of cattle and horses and suck dry their veins; how in some islands of the Western seas there are bats which hang on the trees all day, and those who have seen describe as like giant nuts or pods, and that when the sailors sleep on the deck, because that it is hot, flit down on them, and then--and then in the morning are found dead men, white as even Miss Lucy was?”
“Good God, Professor!” I said, starting up.“Do you mean to tell me that Lucy was bitten by such a bat;and that such a thing is here in London in the nineteenth century?” He waved his hand for silence, and went on:--
“Can you tell me why the tortoise lives more long than generations of men;why the elephant goes on and on till he have seen dynasties;and why the parrot never die only of bite of cat or dog or other complaint?Can you tell me why men believe in all ages and places that there are some few who live on always if they be permit; that there are men and women who cannot die?We all know--because science has vouched for the fact--that there have been toads shut up in rocks for thousands of years, shut in one so small hole that only hold him since the youth of the world. Can you tell me how the Indian fakir can make himself to die and have been buried, and his grave sealed and corn sowed on it, and the corn reaped and be cut and sown and reaped and cut again, and then men come and take away the unbroken seal and that there lie the Indian fakir, not dead, but that rise up and walk amongst them as before?” Here I interrupted him. I was getting bewildered;he so crowded on my mind his list of nature’s eccentricities and possible impossibilities that my imagination was getting fired. I had a dim idea that he was teaching me some lesson, as long ago he used to do in his study at Amsterdam; but he used then to tell me the thing, so that I could have the object of thought in mind all the time. But now I was without this help, yet I wanted to follow him, so I said:--
“Professor, let me be your pet student again.Tell me the thesis,so that I may apply your knowledge as you go on.At present I am going in my mind from point to point as a mad man,and not a sane one, follows an idea.I feel like a novice lumbering through a bog in a mist,jumping from one tussock to another in the mere blind effort to move on without knowing where I am going.”
“That is good image,” he said. “Well, I shall tell you.My thesis is this: I want you to believe.”
“To believe what?”