“Twenty years back, yes; at this time of my life, no. For, as I draw closer and closer to the end,I travel in the circle, nearer and nearer to the beginning.It seems to be one of the kind smoothings and preparings of the way. My heart is touched now,by many remembrances that had long fallen asleep, of my pretty young mother (and I so old!), and by many associations of the days when what we call the World was not so real with me,and my faults were not confirmed in me.”
“I understand the feeling!” exclaimed Carton, with a bright flush. “And you are the better for it?”
“I hope so.”
Carton terminated the conversation here, by rising to help him on with his outer coat; “But you,” said Mr. Lorry, reverting to the theme, “you are young.”
“Yes,” said Carton. “I am not old, but my young way was never the way to age. Enough of me.”
“And of me, I am sure,” said Mr. Lorry. “Are you going out?”
“I’ll walk with you to her gate. You know my vagabond and restless habits.If I should prowl about the streets a long time, don’t be uneasy; I shall reappear in the morning. You go to the Court to-morrow?”
“Yes, unhappily.”
“I shall be there, but only as one of the crowd. My Spy will find a place for me. Take my arm, sir.”
Mr. Lorry did so, and they went down-stairs and out in the streets.A few minutes brought them to Mr. Lorry’s destination. Carton left him there;but lingered at a little distance, and turned back to the gate again when it was shut,and touched it. He had heard of her going to the prison every day. “She came out here,” he said,looking about him, “turned this way, must have trod on these stones often. Let me follow in her steps.”
It was ten o’clock at night when he stood before the prison of La Force,where she had stood hundreds of times. A little wood-sawyer, having closed his shop, was smoking his pipe at his shop-door.
“Good night, citizen,” said Sydney Carton, pausing in going by; for, the man eyed him inquisitively.
“Good night, citizen.”
“How goes the Republic?”
“You mean the Guillotine. Not ill. Sixty-three to-day. We shall mount to a hundred soon.Samson and his men complain sometimes, of being exhausted. Ha, ha, ha!He is so droll, that Samson. Such a Barber!”
“Do you often go to see him--”
“Shave?Always. Every day. What a barber!You have seen him at work?”
“Never.”
“Go and see him when he has a good batch. Figure this to yourself, citizen;he shaved the sixty-three to-day, in less than two pipes!Less than two pipes. Word of honour!”
As the grinning little man held out the pipe he was smoking,to explain how he timed the executioner,Carton was so sensible of a rising desire to strike the life out of him, that he turned away.
“But you are not English,” said the wood-sawyer, “though you wear English dress?”
“Yes,” said Carton, pausing again, and answering over his shoulder.
“You speak like a Frenchman.”
“I am an old student here.”
“Aha, a perfect Frenchman!Good night, Englishman.”
“Good night, citizen.”
“But go and see that droll dog,” the little man persisted, calling after him. “And take a pipe with you!”
Sydney had not gone far out of sight, when he stopped in the middle of the street under a glimmering lamp,and wrote with his pencil on a scrap of paper. Then,traversing with the decided step of one who remembered the way well,several dark and dirty streets--much dirtier than usual,for the best public thoroughfares remained uncleansed in those times of terror--he stopped at a chemist’s shop,which the owner was closing with his own hands. A small, dim, crooked shop, kept in a tortuous,up-hill thoroughfare, by a small, dim, crooked man.
Giving this citizen, too, good night, as he confronted him at his counter,he laid the scrap of paper before him. “Whew!” the chemist whistled softly, as he read it. “Hi!hi!hi!”
Sydney Carton took no heed, and the chemist said:
“For you, citizen?”
“For me.”
“You will be careful to keep them separate, citizen?You know the consequences of mixing them?”
“Perfectly.”
Certain small packets were made and given to him. He put them, one by one,in the breast of his inner coat, counted out the money for them, and deliberately left the shop.“There is nothing more to do,” said he, glancing upward at the moon, “until to-morrow. I can’t sleep.”
It was not a reckless manner, the manner in which he said these words aloud under the fast-sailing clouds,nor was it more expressive of negligence than defiance. It was the settled manner of a tired man,who had wandered and struggled and got lost,but who at length struck into his road and saw its end.
Long ago, when he had been famous among his earliest competitors as a youth of great promise,he had followed his father to the grave. His mother had died, years before. These solemn words,which had been read at his father’s grave, arose in his mind as he went down the dark streets,among the heavy shadows, with the moon and the clouds sailing on high above him.“I am the resurrection and the life, saith the Lord: he that believeth in me, though he were dead,yet shall he live: and whosoever liveth and believeth in me, shall never die.”
In a city dominated by the axe, alone at night,with natural sorrow rising in him for the sixty-three who had been that day put to death,and for to-morrow’s victims then awaiting their doom in the prisons,and still of to-morrow’s and to-morrow’s, the chain of association that brought the words home,like a rusty old ship’s anchor from the deep, might have been easily found. He did not seek it, but repeated them and went on.
With a solemn interest in the lighted windows where the people were going to rest,forgetful through a few calm hours of the horrors surrounding them; in the towers of the churches,where no prayers were said, for the popular revulsion had even travelled that length of self-destruction from years of priestly impostors,plunderers, and profligates; in the distant burial-places, reserved, as they wrote upon the gates,for Eternal Sleep; in the abounding gaols;and in the streets along which the sixties rolled to a death which had become so common and material,that no sorrowful story of a haunting Spirit ever arose among the people out of all the working of the Guillotine;with a solemn interest in the whole life and death of the city settling down to its short nightly pause in fury;Sydney Carton crossed the Seine again for the lighter streets.
Few coaches were abroad, for riders in coaches were liable to be suspected,and gentility hid its head in red nightcaps, and put on heavy shoes, and trudged. But,the theatres were all well filled, and the people poured cheerfully out as he passed,and went chatting home. At one of the theatre doors, there was a little girl with a mother,looking for a way across the street through the mud. He carried the child over,and before the timid arm was loosed from his neck asked her for a kiss.
“I am the resurrection and the life, saith the Lord: he that believeth in me, though he were dead,yet shall he live: and whosoever liveth and believeth in me, shall never die.”
Now, that the streets were quiet, and the night wore on, the words were in the echoes of his feet,and were in the air. Perfectly calm and steady, he sometimes repeated them to himself as he walked; but, he heard them always.
The night wore out, and, as he stood upon the bridge listening to the water as it splashed the river-walls of the Island of Paris,where the picturesque confusion of houses and cathedral shone bright in the light of the moon,the day came coldly, looking like a dead face out of the sky. Then, the night,with the moon and the stars, turned pale and died,and for a little while it seemed as if Creation were delivered over to Death’s dominion.
But, the glorious sun, rising, seemed to strike those words, that burden of the night,straight and warm to his heart in its long bright rays. And looking along them,with reverently shaded eyes, a bridge of light appeared to span the air between him and the sun, while the river sparkled under it.
The strong tide, so swift, so deep, and certain, was like a congenial friend,in the morning stillness. He walked by the stream, far from the houses,and in the light and warmth of the sun fell asleep on the bank. When he awoke and was afoot again,he lingered there yet a little longer, watching an eddy that turned and turned purposeless,until the stream absorbed it, and carried it on to the sea.--“Like me.”
A trading-boat, with a sail of the softened colour of a dead leaf, then glided into his view,floated by him, and died away. As its silent track in the water disappeared,the prayer that had broken up out of his heart for a merciful consideration of all his poor blindnesses and errors,ended in the words, “I am the resurrection and the life.”
Mr. Lorry was already out when he got back,and it was easy to surmise where the good old man was gone.Sydney Carton drank nothing but a little coffee, ate some bread, and,having washed and changed to refresh himself, went out to the place of trial.
The court was all astir and a-buzz, when the black sheep--whom many fell away from in dread--pressed him into an obscure corner among the crowd.Mr. Lorry was there, and Doctor Manette was there. She was there, sitting beside her father.
When her husband was brought in, she turned a look upon him, so sustaining, so encouraging,so full of admiring love and pitying tenderness, yet so courageous for his sake,that it called the healthy blood into his face, brightened his glance, and animated his heart.If there had been any eyes to notice the influence of her look, on Sydney Carton,it would have been seen to be the same influence exactly.
Before that unjust Tribunal, there was little or no order of procedure,ensuring to any accused person any reasonable hearing. There could have been no such Revolution,if all laws, forms, and ceremonies, had not first been so monstrously abused,that the suicidal vengeance of the Revolution was to scatter them all to the winds.
Every eye was turned to the jury. The same determined patriots and good republicans as yesterday and the day before,and to-morrow and the day after. Eager and prominent among them, one man with a craving face,and his fingers perpetually hovering about his lips,whose appearance gave great satisfaction to the spectators. A life-thirsting, cannibal-looking,bloody-minded juryman, the Jacques Three of St. Antoine. The whole jury,as a jury of dogs empannelled to try the deer.
Every eye then turned to the five judges and the public prosecutor.No favourable leaning in that quarter to-day. A fell, uncompromising,murderous business-meaning there. Every eye then sought some other eye in the crowd,and gleamed at it approvingly; and heads nodded at one another,before bending forward with a strained attention.
Charles Evrémonde, called Darnay. Released yesterday. Reaccused and retaken yesterday.Indictment delivered to him last night. Suspected and Denounced enemy of the Republic, Aristocrat,one of a family of tyrants, one of a race proscribed,for that they had used their abolished privileges to the infamous oppression of the people.Charles Evrémonde, called Darnay, in right of such proscription, absolutely Dead in Law.
To this effect, in as few or fewer words, the Public Prosecutor.
The President asked, was the Accused openly denounced or secretly?
“Openly, President.”
“By whom?”
“Three voices. Ernest Defarge, wine-vendor of St. Antoine.”
“Good.”
“Thérèse Defarge, his wife.”
“Good.”
“Alexandre Manette, physician.”
A great uproar took place in the court, and in the midst of it, Doctor Manette was seen,pale and trembling, standing where he had been seated.
“President, I indignantly protest to you that this is a forgery and a fraud.You know the accused to be the husband of my daughter. My daughter, and those dear to her,are far dearer to me than my life. Who and where is the false conspirator who says that I denounce the husband of my child!”
“Citizen Manette, be tranquil. To fail in submission to the authority of the Tribunal would be to put yourself out of Law.As to what is dearer to you than life, nothing can be so dear to a good citizen as the Republic.”
Loud acclamations hailed this rebuke. The President rang his bell, and with warmth resumed.
“If the Republic should demand of you the sacrifice of your child herself,you would have no duty but to sacrifice her. Listen to what is to follow. In the meanwhile, be silent!”
Frantic acclamations were again raised. Doctor Manette sat down, with his eyes looking around,and his lips trembling; his daughter drew closer to him.The craving man on the jury rubbed his hands together, and restored the usual hand to his mouth.
Defarge was produced, when the court was quiet enough to admit of his being heard,and rapidly expounded the story of the imprisonment,and of his having been a mere boy in the Doctor’s service, and of the release,and of the state of the prisoner when released and delivered to him.This short examination followed, for the court was quick with its work.
“You did good service at the taking of the Bastille, citizen?”
“I believe so.”
Here, an excited woman screeched from the crowd: “You were one of the best patriots there. Why not say so?You were a cannonier that day there, and you were among the first to enter the accursed fortress when it fell. Patriots, I speak the truth!”
It was The Vengeance who, amidst the warm commendations of the audience,thus assisted the proceedings. The President rang his bell; but, The Vengeance,warming with encouragement, shrieked, “I defy that bell!” wherein she was likewise much commended.
“Inform the Tribunal of what you did that day within the Bastille, citizen.”
“I knew,” said Defarge, looking down at his wife,who stood at the bottom of the steps on which he was raised, looking steadily up at him;“I knew that this prisoner, of whom I speak,had been confined in a cell known as One Hundred and Five, North Tower. I knew it from himself.He knew himself by no other name than One Hundred and Five, North Tower,when he made shoes under my care. As I serve my gun that day, I resolve, when the place shall fall,to examine that cell. It falls. I mount to the cell, with a fellow-citizen who is one of the Jury,directed by a gaoler. I examine it, very closely. In a hole in the chimney,where a stone has been worked out and replaced, I find a written paper. This is that written paper.I have made it my business to examine some specimens of the writing of Doctor Manette.This is the writing of Doctor Manette. I confide this paper, in the writing of Doctor Manette, to the hands of the President.”
“Let it be read.”
In a dead silence and stillness--the prisoner under trial looking lovingly at his wife,his wife only looking from him to look with solicitude at her father,Doctor Manette keeping his eyes fixed on the reader,Madame Defarge never taking hers from the prisoner,Defarge never taking his from his feasting wife,and all the other eyes there intent upon the Doctor, who saw none of them--the paper was read, as follows.
CHAPTER X. The Substance of the Shadow
“I, Alexandre Manette, unfortunate physician, native of Beauvais, and afterwards resident in Paris,write this melancholy paper in my doleful cell in the Bastille, during the last month of the year,1767. I write it at stolen intervals, under every difficulty.I design to secrete it in the wall of the chimney,where I have slowly and laboriously made a place of concealment for it.Some pitying hand may find it there, when I and my sorrows are dust.
“These words are formed by the rusty iron point with which I write with difficulty in scrapings of soot and charcoal from the chimney,mixed with blood, in the last month of the tenth year of my captivity.Hope has quite departed from my breast.I know from terrible warnings I have noted in myself that my reason will not long remain unimpaired,but I solemnly declare that I am at this time in the possession of my right mind--that my memory is exact and circumstantial--and that I write the truth as I shall answer for these my last recorded words, whether they be ever read by men or not, at the Eternal Judgment-seat.
“One cloudy moonlight night, in the third week of December (I think the twenty-second of the month) in the year 1757,I was walking on a retired part of the quay by the Seine for the refreshment of the frosty air,at an hour’s distance from my place of residence in the Street of the School of Medicine,when a carriage came along behind me, driven very fast. As I stood aside to let that carriage pass,apprehensive that it might otherwise run me down, a head was put out at the window,and a voice called to the driver to stop.
“The carriage stopped as soon as the driver could rein in his horses,and the same voice called to me by my name. I answered.The carriage was then so far in advance of me that two gentlemen had time to open the door and alight before I came up with it.
“I observed that they were both wrapped in cloaks, and appeared to conceal themselves.As they stood side by side near the carriage door,I also observed that they both looked of about my own age, or rather younger,and that they were greatly alike, in stature, manner, voice, and (as far as I could see) face too.
“‘You are Doctor Manette?’ said one.
“I am.”
“‘Doctor Manette, formerly of Beauvais,’ said the other; ‘the young physician,originally an expert surgeon, who within the last year or two has made a rising reputation in Paris?’
“‘Gentlemen,’ I returned, ‘I am that Doctor Manette of whom you speak so graciously.’
“‘We have been to your residence,’ said the first, ‘and not being so fortunate as to find you there,and being informed that you were probably walking in this direction, we followed,in the hope of overtaking you. Will you please to enter the carriage?’
“The manner of both was imperious, and they both moved, as these words were spoken,so as to place me between themselves and the carriage door. They were armed. I was not.
“‘Gentlemen,’ said I, ‘pardon me; but I usually inquire who does me the honour to seek my assistance,and what is the nature of the case to which I am summoned.’
“The reply to this was made by him who had spoken second. ‘Doctor,your clients are people of condition. As to the nature of the case,our confidence in your skill assures us that you will ascertain it for yourself better than we can describe it.Enough. Will you please to enter the carriage?’
“I could do nothing but comply, and I entered it in silence.They both entered after me--the last springing in, after putting up the steps.The carriage turned about, and drove on at its former speed.
“I repeat this conversation exactly as it occurred. I have no doubt that it is, word for word,the same. I describe everything exactly as it took place,constraining my mind not to wander from the task. Where I make the broken marks that follow here,I leave off for the time, and put my paper in its hiding-place.
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“The carriage left the streets behind, passed the North Barrier, and emerged upon the country road.At two-thirds of a league from the Barrier--I did not estimate the distance at that time,but afterwards when I traversed it--it struck out of the main avenue,and presently stopped at a solitary house, We all three alighted, and walked,by a damp soft footpath in a garden where a neglected fountain had overflowed,to the door of the house. It was not opened immediately, in answer to the ringing of the bell,and one of my two conductors struck the man who opened it, with his heavy riding glove, across the face.
“There was nothing in this action to attract my particular attention,for I had seen common people struck more commonly than dogs. But, the other of the two,being angry likewise, struck the man in like manner with his arm;the look and bearing of the brothers were then so exactly alike,that I then first perceived them to be twin brothers.
“From the time of our alighting at the outer gate (which we found locked,and which one of the brothers had opened to admit us, and had relocked),I had heard cries proceeding from an upper chamber. I was conducted to this chamber straight,the cries growing louder as we ascended the stairs,and I found a patient in a high fever of the brain, lying on a bed.
“The patient was a woman of great beauty, and young; assuredly not much past twenty.Her hair was torn and ragged, and her arms were bound to her sides with sashes and handkerchiefs.I noticed that these bonds were all portions of a gentleman’s dress. On one of them,which was a fringed scarf for a dress of ceremony, I saw the armorial bearings of a Noble, and the letter E.
“I saw this, within the first minute of my contemplation of the patient; for,in her restless strivings she had turned over on her face on the edge of the bed,had drawn the end of the scarf into her mouth, and was in danger of suffocation.My first act was to put out my hand to relieve her breathing; and in moving the scarf aside,the embroidery in the corner caught my sight.
“I turned her gently over, placed my hands upon her breast to calm her and keep her down,and looked into her face. Her eyes were dilated and wild,and she constantly uttered piercing shrieks, and repeated the words, ‘My husband, my father, and my brother!’ and then counted up to twelve, and said, ‘Hush!’ For an instant, and no more, she would pause to listen,and then the piercing shrieks would begin again, and she would repeat the cry, ‘My husband, my father, and my brother!’ and would count up to twelve, and say, ‘Hush!’ There was no variation in the order, or the manner. There was no cessation,but the regular moment’s pause, in the utterance of these sounds.
“‘How long,’ I asked, ‘has this lasted?’
“To distinguish the brothers, I will call them the elder and the younger; by the elder,I mean him who exercised the most authority. It was the elder who replied, ‘Since about this hour last night.’
“‘She has a husband, a father, and a brother?’
“‘A brother.’
“‘I do not address her brother?’
“He answered with great contempt, ‘No.’
“‘She has some recent association with the number twelve?’
“The younger brother impatiently rejoined, ‘With twelve o’clock?’
“‘See, gentlemen,’ said I, still keeping my hands upon her breast, ‘how useless I am, as you have brought me!If I had known what I was coming to see, I could have come provided. As it is, time must be lost.There are no medicines to be obtained in this lonely place.’
“The elder brother looked to the younger, who said haughtily, ‘There is a case of medicines here;’ and brought it from a closet, and put it on the table.
*****
“I opened some of the bottles, smelt them, and put the stoppers to my lips.If I had wanted to use anything save narcotic medicines that were poisons in themselves,I would not have administered any of those.
“‘Do you doubt them?’ asked the younger brother.
“‘You see, monsieur, I am going to use them,’ I replied, and said no more.
“I made the patient swallow, with great difficulty, and after many efforts,the dose that I desired to give. As I intended to repeat it after a while,and as it was necessary to watch its influence, I then sat down by the side of the bed.There was a timid and suppressed woman in attendance (wife of the man down-stairs),who had retreated into a corner. The house was damp and decayed,indifferently furnished--evidently, recently occupied and temporarily used.Some thick old hangings had been nailed up before the windows, to deaden the sound of the shrieks.They continued to be uttered in their regular succession, with the cry, ‘My husband, my father, and my brother!’ the counting up to twelve, and ‘Hush!’ The frenzy was so violent, that I had not unfastened the bandages restraining the arms; but,I had looked to them, to see that they were not painful.The only spark of encouragement in the case, was,that my hand upon the sufferer’s breast had this much soothing influence,that for minutes at a time it tranquillised the figure. It had no effect upon the cries; no pendulum could be more regular.
“For the reason that my hand had this effect (I assume),I had sat by the side of the bed for half an hour, with the two brothers looking on, before the elder said:
“‘There is another patient.’
“I was startled, and asked, ‘Is it a pressing case?’
“‘You had better see,’ he carelessly answered; and took up a light.
*****
“The other patient lay in a back room across a second staircase,which was a species of loft over a stable. There was a low plastered ceiling to a part of it;the rest was open, to the ridge of the tiled roof, and there were beams across.Hay and straw were stored in that portion of the place, fagots for firing,and a heap of apples in sand. I had to pass through that part, to get at the other.My memory is circumstantial and unshaken. I try it with these details, and I see them all,in this my cell in the Bastille, near the close of the tenth year of my captivity, as I saw them all that night.
“On some hay on the ground, with a cushion thrown under his head,lay a handsome peasant boy--a boy of not more than seventeen at the most. He lay on his back,with his teeth set, his right hand clenched on his breast,and his glaring eyes looking straight upward. I could not see where his wound was,as I kneeled on one knee over him; but,I could see that he was dying of a wound from a sharp point.
“‘I am a doctor, my poor fellow,’ said I. ‘Let me examine it.’
“‘I do not want it examined,’ he answered; ‘let it be.’
“It was under his hand, and I soothed him to let me move his hand away.The wound was a sword-thrust, received from twenty to twenty-four hours before,but no skill could have saved him if it had been looked to without delay. He was then dying fast.As I turned my eyes to the elder brother,I saw him looking down at this handsome boy whose life was ebbing out,as if he were a wounded bird, or hare, or rabbit; not at all as if he were a fellow-creature.
“‘How has this been done, monsieur?’ said I.
“‘A crazed young common dog!A serf!Forced my brother to draw upon him, and has fallen by my brother’s sword--like a gentleman.’
“There was no touch of pity, sorrow, or kindred humanity, in this answer.The speaker seemed to acknowledge that it was inconvenient to have that different order of creature dying there,and that it would have been better if he had died in the usual obscure routine of his vermin kind.He was quite incapable of any compassionate feeling about the boy, or about his fate.
“The boy’s eyes had slowly moved to him as he had spoken, and they now slowly moved to me.
“‘Doctor, they are very proud, these Nobles; but we common dogs are proud too, sometimes.They plunder us, outrage us, beat us, kill us; but we have a little pride left, sometimes. She--have you seen her, Doctor?’
“The shrieks and the cries were audible there, though subdued by the distance. He referred to them, as if she were lying in our presence.
“I said, ‘I have seen her.’
“‘She is my sister, Doctor. They have had their shameful rights, these Nobles,in the modesty and virtue of our sisters, many years, but we have had good girls among us.I know it, and have heard my father say so. She was a good girl.She was betrothed to a good young man, too: a tenant of his.We were all tenants of his--that man’s who stands there. The other is his brother, the worst of a bad race.’
“It was with the greatest difficulty that the boy gathered bodily force to speak; but,his spirit spoke with a dreadful emphasis.
“‘We were so robbed by that man who stands there,as all we common dogs are by those superior Beings--taxed by him without mercy,obliged to work for him without pay, obliged to grind our corn at his mill,obliged to feed scores of his tame birds on our wretched crops,and forbidden for our lives to keep a single tame bird of our own,pillaged and plundered to that degree that when we chanced to have a bit of meat,we ate it in fear, with the door barred and the shutters closed,that his people should not see it and take it from us--I say, we were so robbed, and hunted,and were made so poor, that our father told us it was a dreadful thing to bring a child into the world,and that what we should most pray for, was,that our women might be barren and our miserable race die out!’
“I had never before seen the sense of being oppressed, bursting forth like a fire.I had supposed that it must be latent in the people somewhere; but, I had never seen it break out, until I saw it in the dying boy.
“‘Nevertheless, Doctor, my sister married. He was ailing at that time, poor fellow,and she married her lover, that she might tend and comfort him in our cottage--our dog-hut,as that man would call it. She had not been married many weeks,when that man’s brother saw her and admired her,and asked that man to lend her to him--for what are husbands among us!He was willing enough, but my sister was good and virtuous,and hated his brother with a hatred as strong as mine. What did the two then,to persuade her husband to use his influence with her, to make her willing?’
“The boy’s eyes, which had been fixed on mine, slowly turned to the looker-on,and I saw in the two faces that all he said was true.The two opposing kinds of pride confronting one another, I can see, even in this Bastille;the gentleman’s, all negligent indifference; the peasant’s, all trodden-down sentiment, and passionate revenge.