“Ah!those were pleasant days when I had the Laconia!How fast I made money in her. A friend of mine and I had such a lovely cruise together off the Western Islands. Poor Harville, sister!You know how much he wanted money: worse than myself. He had a wife. Excellent fellow.I shall never forget his happiness. He felt it all, so much for her sake.I wished for him again the next summer, when I had still the same luck in the Mediterranean.”
“And I am sure, Sir,” said Mrs Musgrove, “it was a lucky day for _us_,when you were put captain into that ship. _We_ shall never forget what you did.”
Her feelings made her speak low; and Captain Wentworth, hearing only in part,and probably not having Dick Musgrove at all near his thoughts, looked rather in suspense, and as if waiting for more.
“My brother,” whispered one of the girls; “mamma is thinking of poor Richard.”
“Poor dear fellow!” continued Mrs Musgrove; “he was grown so steady, and such an excellent correspondent, while he was under your care!Ah!it would have been a happy thing, if he had never left you. I assure you, Captain Wentworth, we are very sorry he ever left you.”
There was a momentary expression in Captain Wentworth’s face at this speech,a certain glance of his bright eye, and curl of his handsome mouth, which convinced Anne,that instead of sharing in Mrs Musgrove’s kind wishes, as to her son,he had probably been at some pains to get rid of him;but it was too transient an indulgence of self-amusement to be detected by any who understood him less than herself;in another moment he was perfectly collected and serious,and almost instantly afterwards coming up to the sofa, on which she and Mrs Musgrove were sitting,took a place by the latter, and entered into conversation with her, in a low voice, about her son,doing it with so much sympathy and natural grace,as shewed the kindest consideration for all that was real and unabsurd in the parent’s feelings.
They were actually on the same sofa, for Mrs Musgrove had most readily made room for him;they were divided only by Mrs Musgrove. It was no insignificant barrier, indeed.Mrs Musgrove was of a comfortable, substantial size,infinitely more fitted by nature to express good cheer and good humour,than tenderness and sentiment; and while the agitations of Anne’s slender form, and pensive face,may be considered as very completely screened,Captain Wentworth should be allowed some credit for the self-command with which he attended to her large fat sighings over the destiny of a son, whom alive nobody had cared for.
Personal size and mental sorrow have certainly no necessary proportions.A large bulky figure has as good a right to be in deep affliction,as the most graceful set of limbs in the world. But, fair or not fair,there are unbecoming conjunctions, which reason will patronize in vain—which taste cannot tolerate—which ridicule will seize.
The Admiral, after taking two or three refreshing turns about the room with his hands behind him,being called to order by his wife, now came up to Captain Wentworth,and without any observation of what he might be interrupting, thinking only of his own thoughts, began with—
“If you had been a week later at Lisbon, last spring, Frederick,you would have been asked to give a passage to Lady Mary Grierson and her daughters.”
“Should I?I am glad I was not a week later then.”
The Admiral abused him for his want of gallantry. He defended himself;though professing that he would never willingly admit any ladies on board a ship of his,excepting for a ball, or a visit, which a few hours might comprehend.
“But, if I know myself,” said he, “this is from no want of gallantry towards them.It is rather from feeling how impossible it is, with all one’s efforts, and all one’s sacrifices,to make the accommodations on board such as women ought to have. There can be no want of gallantry,Admiral, in rating the claims of women to every personal comfort _high_, and this is what I do.I hate to hear of women on board, or to see them on board;and no ship under my command shall ever convey a family of ladies anywhere, if I can help it.”
This brought his sister upon him.
“Oh!Frederick!But I cannot believe it of you.—All idle refinement!—Women may be as comfortable on board, as in the best house in England.I believe I have lived as much on board as most women,and I know nothing superior to the accommodations of a man-of-war.I declare I have not a comfort or an indulgence about me, even at Kellynch Hall,” (with a kind bow to Anne), “beyond what I always had in most of the ships I have lived in; and they have been five altogether.”
“Nothing to the purpose,” replied her brother. “You were living with your husband, and were the only woman on board.”
“But you, yourself, brought Mrs Harville, her sister, her cousin, and three children,round from Portsmouth to Plymouth. Where was this superfine,extraordinary sort of gallantry of yours then?”
“All merged in my friendship, Sophia. I would assist any brother officer’s wife that I could,and I would bring anything of Harville’s from the world’s end, if he wanted it.But do not imagine that I did not feel it an evil in itself.”
“Depend upon it, they were all perfectly comfortable.”
“I might not like them the better for that perhaps.Such a number of women and children have no _right_ to be comfortable on board.”
“My dear Frederick, you are talking quite idly. Pray, what would become of us poor sailors’ wives,who often want to be conveyed to one port or another, after our husbands, if everybody had your feelings?”
“My feelings, you see, did not prevent my taking Mrs Harville and all her family to Plymouth.”
“But I hate to hear you talking so like a fine gentleman, and as if women were all fine ladies,instead of rational creatures. We none of us expect to be in smooth water all our days.”
“Ah!my dear,” said the Admiral, “when he has got a wife, he will sing a different tune.When he is married, if we have the good luck to live to another war,we shall see him do as you and I, and a great many others, have done.We shall have him very thankful to anybody that will bring him his wife.”
“Ay, that we shall.”
“Now I have done,” cried Captain Wentworth. “When once married people begin to attack me with,—‘Oh!you will think very differently, when you are married.’ I can only say, ‘No, I shall not;’ and then they say again, ‘Yes, you will,’ and there is an end of it.”
He got up and moved away.
“What a great traveller you must have been, ma’am!” said Mrs Musgrove to Mrs Croft.
“Pretty well, ma’am, in the fifteen years of my marriage; though many women have done more.I have crossed the Atlantic four times, and have been once to the East Indies, and back again,and only once; besides being in different places about home: Cork, and Lisbon, and Gibraltar.But I never went beyond the Streights, and never was in the West Indies.We do not call Bermuda or Bahama, you know, the West Indies.”
Mrs Musgrove had not a word to say in dissent;she could not accuse herself of having ever called them anything in the whole course of her life.
“And I do assure you, ma’am,” pursued Mrs Croft,“that nothing can exceed the accommodations of a man-of-war; I speak, you know,of the higher rates. When you come to a frigate, of course, you are more confined;though any reasonable woman may be perfectly happy in one of them; and I can safely say,that the happiest part of my life has been spent on board a ship. While we were together, you know,there was nothing to be feared. Thank God!I have always been blessed with excellent health, and no climate disagrees with me.A little disordered always the first twenty-four hours of going to sea,but never knew what sickness was afterwards. The only time I ever really suffered in body or mind,the only time that I ever fancied myself unwell, or had any ideas of danger,was the winter that I passed by myself at Deal,when the Admiral (_Captain_ Croft then) was in the North Seas.I lived in perpetual fright at that time,and had all manner of imaginary complaints from not knowing what to do with myself,or when I should hear from him next; but as long as we could be together, nothing ever ailed me,and I never met with the smallest inconvenience.”
“Aye, to be sure. Yes, indeed, oh yes!I am quite of your opinion, Mrs Croft,” was Mrs Musgrove’s hearty answer.“There is nothing so bad as a separation. I am quite of your opinion. _I_ know what it is,for Mr Musgrove always attends the assizes, and I am so glad when they are over, and he is safe back again.”
The evening ended with dancing. On its being proposed, Anne offered her services, as usual;and though her eyes would sometimes fill with tears as she sat at the instrument,she was extremely glad to be employed, and desired nothing in return but to be unobserved.
It was a merry, joyous party, and no one seemed in higher spirits than Captain Wentworth.She felt that he had every thing to elevate him which general attention and deference,and especially the attention of all the young women, could do. The Miss Hayters,the females of the family of cousins already mentioned,were apparently admitted to the honour of being in love with him; and as for Henrietta and Louisa,they both seemed so entirely occupied by him,that nothing but the continued appearance of the most perfect good-will between themselves could have made it credible that they were not decided rivals.If he were a little spoilt by such universal, such eager admiration, who could wonder?
These were some of the thoughts which occupied Anne, while her fingers were mechanically at work,proceeding for half an hour together, equally without error, and without consciousness._Once_ she felt that he was looking at herself, observing her altered features, perhaps,trying to trace in them the ruins of the face which had once charmed him;and _once_ she knew that he must have spoken of her; she was hardly aware of it,till she heard the answer; but then she was sure of his having asked his partner whether Miss Elliot never danced?The answer was, “Oh, no; never; she has quite given up dancing. She had rather play.She is never tired of playing.” Once, too, he spoke to her.She had left the instrument on the dancing being over,and he had sat down to try to make out an air which he wished to give the Miss Musgroves an idea of.Unintentionally she returned to that part of the room; he saw her, and, instantly rising, said, with studied politeness—
“I beg your pardon, madam, this is your seat;” and though she immediately drew back with a decided negative,he was not to be induced to sit down again.
Anne did not wish for more of such looks and speeches. His cold politeness, his ceremonious grace, were worse than anything.
CHAPTER IX.
Captain Wentworth was come to Kellynch as to a home, to stay as long as he liked,being as thoroughly the object of the Admiral’s fraternal kindness as of his wife’s.He had intended, on first arriving, to proceed very soon into Shropshire,and visit the brother settled in that country,but the attractions of Uppercross induced him to put this off. There was so much of friendliness,and of flattery, and of everything most bewitching in his reception there;the old were so hospitable, the young so agreeable,that he could not but resolve to remain where he was,and take all the charms and perfections of Edward’s wife upon credit a little longer.
It was soon Uppercross with him almost every day.The Musgroves could hardly be more ready to invite than he to come, particularly in the morning,when he had no companion at home, for the Admiral and Mrs Croft were generally out of doors together,interesting themselves in their new possessions, their grass, and their sheep,and dawdling about in a way not endurable to a third person, or driving out in a gig, lately added to their establishment.
Hitherto there had been but one opinion of Captain Wentworth among the Musgroves and their dependencies.It was unvarying, warm admiration everywhere;but this intimate footing was not more than established,when a certain Charles Hayter returned among them, to be a good deal disturbed by it,and to think Captain Wentworth very much in the way.
Charles Hayter was the eldest of all the cousins, and a very amiable, pleasing young man,between whom and Henrietta there had been a considerable appearance of attachment previous to Captain Wentworth’s introduction.He was in orders; and having a curacy in the neighbourhood, where residence was not required,lived at his father’s house, only two miles from Uppercross.A short absence from home had left his fair one unguarded by his attentions at this critical period,and when he came back he had the pain of finding very altered manners, and of seeing Captain Wentworth.
Mrs Musgrove and Mrs Hayter were sisters. They had each had money,but their marriages had made a material difference in their degree of consequence.Mr Hayter had some property of his own, but it was insignificant compared with Mr Musgrove’s;and while the Musgroves were in the first class of society in the country, the young Hayters would,from their parents’ inferior, retired, and unpolished way of living,and their own defective education, have been hardly in any class at all,but for their connexion with Uppercross, this eldest son of course excepted,who had chosen to be a scholar and a gentleman,and who was very superior in cultivation and manners to all the rest.
The two families had always been on excellent terms, there being no pride on one side,and no envy on the other, and only such a consciousness of superiority in the Miss Musgroves,as made them pleased to improve their cousins.Charles’s attentions to Henrietta had been observed by her father and mother without any disapprobation.“It would not be a great match for her; but if Henrietta liked him, ”—and Henrietta _did_ seem to like him.
Henrietta fully thought so herself, before Captain Wentworth came;but from that time Cousin Charles had been very much forgotten.
Which of the two sisters was preferred by Captain Wentworth was as yet quite doubtful,as far as Anne’s observation reached. Henrietta was perhaps the prettiest,Louisa had the higher spirits; and she knew not _now_,whether the more gentle or the more lively character were most likely to attract him.
Mr and Mrs Musgrove, either from seeing little,or from an entire confidence in the discretion of both their daughters,and of all the young men who came near them, seemed to leave everything to take its chance.There was not the smallest appearance of solicitude or remark about them in the Mansion-house;but it was different at the Cottage: the young couple there were more disposed to speculate and wonder;and Captain Wentworth had not been above four or five times in the Miss Musgroves’ company,and Charles Hayter had but just reappeared,when Anne had to listen to the opinions of her brother and sister,as to _which_ was the one liked best. Charles gave it for Louisa, Mary for Henrietta,but quite agreeing that to have him marry either could be extremely delightful.
Charles “had never seen a pleasanter man in his life;and from what he had once heard Captain Wentworth himself say,was very sure that he had not made less than twenty thousand pounds by the war.Here was a fortune at once; besides which,there would be the chance of what might be done in any future war;and he was sure Captain Wentworth was as likely a man to distinguish himself as any officer in the navy. Oh!it would be a capital match for either of his sisters.”
“Upon my word it would,” replied Mary. “Dear me!If he should rise to any very great honours!If he should ever be made a baronet!‘Lady Wentworth’ sounds very well. That would be a noble thing, indeed, for Henrietta!She would take place of me then, and Henrietta would not dislike that. Sir Frederick and Lady Wentworth!It would be but a new creation, however, and I never think much of your new creations.”
It suited Mary best to think Henrietta the one preferred on the very account of Charles Hayter,whose pretensions she wished to see put an end to. She looked down very decidedly upon the Hayters,and thought it would be quite a misfortune to have the existing connection between the families renewed—very sad for herself and her children.
“You know,” said she, “I cannot think him at all a fit match for Henrietta;and considering the alliances which the Musgroves have made,she has no right to throw herself away.I do not think any young woman has a right to make a choice that may be disagreeable and inconvenient to the _principal_ part of her family,and be giving bad connections to those who have not been used to them. And, pray, who is Charles Hayter?Nothing but a country curate. A most improper match for Miss Musgrove of Uppercross.”
Her husband, however, would not agree with her here; for besides having a regard for his cousin,Charles Hayter was an eldest son, and he saw things as an eldest son himself.
“Now you are talking nonsense, Mary,” was therefore his answer.“It would not be a _great_ match for Henrietta, but Charles has a very fair chance,through the Spicers, of getting something from the Bishop in the course of a year or two;and you will please to remember, that he is the eldest son; whenever my uncle dies,he steps into very pretty property. The estate at Winthrop is not less than two hundred and fifty acres,besides the farm near Taunton, which is some of the best land in the country. I grant you,that any of them but Charles would be a very shocking match for Henrietta,and indeed it could not be; he is the only one that could be possible;but he is a very good-natured, good sort of a fellow; and whenever Winthrop comes into his hands,he will make a different sort of place of it, and live in a very different sort of way;and with that property, he will never be a contemptible man—good, freehold property. No, no;Henrietta might do worse than marry Charles Hayter; and if she has him,and Louisa can get Captain Wentworth, I shall be very well satisfied.”
“Charles may say what he pleases,” cried Mary to Anne, as soon as he was out of the room,“but it would be shocking to have Henrietta marry Charles Hayter; a very bad thing for _her_,and still worse for _me;_ and therefore it is very much to be wished that Captain Wentworth may soon put him quite out of her head,and I have very little doubt that he has. She took hardly any notice of Charles Hayter yesterday.I wish you had been there to see her behaviour.And as to Captain Wentworth’s liking Louisa as well as Henrietta, it is nonsense to say so;for he certainly _does_ like Henrietta a great deal the best. But Charles is so positive!I wish you had been with us yesterday, for then you might have decided between us;and I am sure you would have thought as I did,unless you had been determined to give it against me.”
A dinner at Mr Musgrove’s had been the occasion when all these things should have been seen by Anne;but she had staid at home, under the mixed plea of a headache of her own,and some return of indisposition in little Charles.She had thought only of avoiding Captain Wentworth;but an escape from being appealed to as umpire was now added to the advantages of a quiet evening.
As to Captain Wentworth’s views, she deemed it of more consequence that he should know his own mind early enough not to be endangering the happiness of either sister, or impeaching his own honour, than that he should prefer Henrietta to Louisa, or Louisa to Henrietta. Either of them would, in all probability, make him an affectionate, good-humoured wife. With regard to Charles Hayter, she had delicacy which must be pained by any lightness of conduct in a well-meaning young woman, and a heart to sympathize in any of the sufferings it occasioned; but if Henrietta found herself mistaken in the nature of her feelings, the alteration could not be understood too soon.
Charles Hayter had met with much to disquiet and mortify him in his cousin’s behaviour.She had too old a regard for him to be so wholly estranged as might in two meetings extinguish every past hope,and leave him nothing to do but to keep away from Uppercross:but there was such a change as became very alarming,when such a man as Captain Wentworth was to be regarded as the probable cause.He had been absent only two Sundays, and when they parted, had left her interested,even to the height of his wishes, in his prospect of soon quitting his present curacy,and obtaining that of Uppercross instead. It had then seemed the object nearest her heart,that Dr Shirley, the rector, who for more than forty years had been zealously discharging all the duties of his office,but was now growing too infirm for many of them, should be quite fixed on engaging a curate;should make his curacy quite as good as he could afford,and should give Charles Hayter the promise of it.The advantage of his having to come only to Uppercross, instead of going six miles another way;of his having, in every respect, a better curacy; of his belonging to their dear Dr Shirley,and of dear, good Dr Shirley’s being relieved from the duty which he could no longer get through without most injurious fatigue,had been a great deal, even to Louisa, but had been almost everything to Henrietta. When he came back, alas!the zeal of the business was gone by. Louisa could not listen at all to his account of a conversation which he had just held with Dr Shirley:she was at a window, looking out for Captain Wentworth;and even Henrietta had at best only a divided attention to give,and seemed to have forgotten all the former doubt and solicitude of the negotiation.
“Well, I am very glad indeed: but I always thought you would have it; I always thought you sure.It did not appear to me that—in short, you know, Dr Shirley _must_ have a curate,and you had secured his promise. Is he coming, Louisa?”
One morning, very soon after the dinner at the Musgroves, at which Anne had not been present,Captain Wentworth walked into the drawing-room at the Cottage,where were only herself and the little invalid Charles, who was lying on the sofa.
The surprise of finding himself almost alone with Anne Elliot,deprived his manners of their usual composure: he started, and could only say,“I thought the Miss Musgroves had been here: Mrs Musgrove told me I should find them here,” before he walked to the window to recollect himself, and feel how he ought to behave.
“They are up stairs with my sister: they will be down in a few moments, I dare say,” had been Anne’s reply, in all the confusion that was natural;and if the child had not called her to come and do something for him,she would have been out of the room the next moment,and released Captain Wentworth as well as herself.
He continued at the window; and after calmly and politely saying, “I hope the little boy is better, ” was silent.
She was obliged to kneel down by the sofa, and remain there to satisfy her patient;and thus they continued a few minutes, when, to her very great satisfaction,she heard some other person crossing the little vestibule. She hoped, on turning her head,to see the master of the house; but it proved to be one much less calculated for making matters easy—Charles Hayter,probably not at all better pleased by the sight of Captain Wentworth than Captain Wentworth had been by the sight of Anne.
She only attempted to say, “How do you do?Will you not sit down?The others will be here presently.”
Captain Wentworth, however, came from his window, apparently not ill-disposed for conversation;but Charles Hayter soon put an end to his attempts by seating himself near the table,and taking up the newspaper; and Captain Wentworth returned to his window.
Another minute brought another addition. The younger boy, a remarkable stout, forward child,of two years old, having got the door opened for him by some one without,made his determined appearance among them, and went straight to the sofa to see what was going on,and put in his claim to anything good that might be giving away.
There being nothing to eat, he could only have some play;and as his aunt would not let him tease his sick brother, he began to fasten himself upon her,as she knelt, in such a way that, busy as she was about Charles, she could not shake him off.She spoke to him, ordered, entreated, and insisted in vain. Once she did contrive to push him away,but the boy had the greater pleasure in getting upon her back again directly.
“Walter,” said she, “get down this moment. You are extremely troublesome. I am very angry with you.”
“Walter,” cried Charles Hayter, “why do you not do as you are bid?Do not you hear your aunt speak?Come to me, Walter, come to cousin Charles.”
But not a bit did Walter stir.
In another moment, however, she found herself in the state of being released from him;some one was taking him from her, though he had bent down her head so much,that his little sturdy hands were unfastened from around her neck,and he was resolutely borne away, before she knew that Captain Wentworth had done it.
Her sensations on the discovery made her perfectly speechless. She could not even thank him.She could only hang over little Charles, with most disordered feelings.His kindness in stepping forward to her relief, the manner, the silence in which it had passed,the little particulars of the circumstance,with the conviction soon forced on her by the noise he was studiously making with the child,that he meant to avoid hearing her thanks,and rather sought to testify that her conversation was the last of his wants,produced such a confusion of varying, but very painful agitation, as she could not recover from,till enabled by the entrance of Mary and the Miss Musgroves to make over her little patient to their cares,and leave the room. She could not stay.It might have been an opportunity of watching the loves and jealousies of the four—they were now altogether;but she could stay for none of it. It was evident that Charles Hayter was not well inclined towards Captain Wentworth.She had a strong impression of his having said, in a vext tone of voice,after Captain Wentworth’s interference, “You ought to have minded _me_, Walter;I told you not to teaze your aunt;” and could comprehend his regretting that Captain Wentworth should do what he ought to have done himself.But neither Charles Hayter’s feelings, nor anybody’s feelings, could interest her,till she had a little better arranged her own. She was ashamed of herself,quite ashamed of being so nervous, so overcome by such a trifle; but so it was,and it required a long application of solitude and reflection to recover her.
CHAPTER X.
Other opportunities of making her observations could not fail to occur.Anne had soon been in company with all the four together often enough to have an opinion,though too wise to acknowledge as much at home,where she knew it would have satisfied neither husband nor wife;for while she considered Louisa to be rather the favourite, she could not but think,as far as she might dare to judge from memory and experience,that Captain Wentworth was not in love with either. They were more in love with him;yet there it was not love. It was a little fever of admiration; but it might, probably must,end in love with some. Charles Hayter seemed aware of being slighted,and yet Henrietta had sometimes the air of being divided between them.Anne longed for the power of representing to them all what they were about,and of pointing out some of the evils they were exposing themselves to.She did not attribute guile to any. It was the highest satisfaction to her to believe Captain Wentworth not in the least aware of the pain he was occasioning.There was no triumph, no pitiful triumph in his manner. He had, probably, never heard,and never thought of any claims of Charles Hayter.He was only wrong in accepting the attentions (for accepting must be the word) of two young women at once.
After a short struggle, however, Charles Hayter seemed to quit the field.Three days had passed without his coming once to Uppercross; a most decided change.He had even refused one regular invitation to dinner;and having been found on the occasion by Mr Musgrove with some large books before him,Mr and Mrs Musgrove were sure all could not be right, and talked, with grave faces,of his studying himself to death. It was Mary’s hope and belief that he had received a positive dismissal from Henrietta,and her husband lived under the constant dependence of seeing him to-morrow.Anne could only feel that Charles Hayter was wise.
One morning, about this time Charles Musgrove and Captain Wentworth being gone a-shooting together,as the sisters in the Cottage were sitting quietly at work,they were visited at the window by the sisters from the Mansion-house.