“Your sister, I hope, cannot be offended,” said he,“by the resemblance I have fancied between her and my poor disgraced relation. Their fates,their fortunes, cannot be the same; and had the natural sweet disposition of the one been guarded by a firmer mind,or a happier marriage, she might have been all that you will live to see the other be. But to what does all this lead?I seem to have been distressing you for nothing. Ah!Miss Dashwood—a subject such as this—untouched for fourteen years—it is dangerous to handle it at all!I _will_ be more collected—more concise. She left to my care her only child, a little girl,the offspring of her first guilty connection, who was then about three years old.She loved the child, and had always kept it with her. It was a valued, a precious trust to me;and gladly would I have discharged it in the strictest sense,by watching over her education myself, had the nature of our situations allowed it;but I had no family, no home; and my little Eliza was therefore placed at school.I saw her there whenever I could, and after the death of my brother,(which happened about five years ago, and which left to me the possession of the family property,) she visited me at Delaford. I called her a distant relation;but I am well aware that I have in general been suspected of a much nearer connection with her.It is now three years ago (she had just reached her fourteenth year,) that I removed her from school, to place her under the care of a very respectable woman,residing in Dorsetshire, who had the charge of four or five other girls of about the same time of life;and for two years I had every reason to be pleased with her situation. But last February,almost a twelvemonth back, she suddenly disappeared. I had allowed her, (imprudently,as it has since turned out,) at her earnest desire, to go to Bath with one of her young friends,who was attending her father there for his health. I knew him to be a very good sort of man,and I thought well of his daughter—better than she deserved, for,with a most obstinate and ill-judged secrecy, she would tell nothing, would give no clue,though she certainly knew all. He, her father, a well-meaning, but not a quick-sighted man,could really, I believe, give no information; for he had been generally confined to the house,while the girls were ranging over the town and making what acquaintance they chose;and he tried to convince me, as thoroughly as he was convinced himself,of his daughter’s being entirely unconcerned in the business. In short,I could learn nothing but that she was gone; all the rest, for eight long months,was left to conjecture. What I thought, what I feared, may be imagined; and what I suffered too.”
“Good heavens!” cried Elinor, “could it be—could Willoughby!”—
“The first news that reached me of her,” he continued, “came in a letter from herself, last October.It was forwarded to me from Delaford, and I received it on the very morning of our intended party to Whitwell;and this was the reason of my leaving Barton so suddenly,which I am sure must at the time have appeared strange to every body,and which I believe gave offence to some. Little did Mr. Willoughby imagine, I suppose,when his looks censured me for incivility in breaking up the party,that I was called away to the relief of one whom he had made poor and miserable;but _had_ he known it, what would it have availed?Would he have been less gay or less happy in the smiles of your sister?No, he had already done that, which no man who _can_ feel for another would do.He had left the girl whose youth and innocence he had seduced,in a situation of the utmost distress, with no creditable home, no help, no friends, ignorant of his address!He had left her, promising to return; he neither returned, nor wrote, nor relieved her.”
“This is beyond every thing!” exclaimed Elinor.
“His character is now before you; expensive, dissipated, and worse than both. Knowing all this,as I have now known it many weeks, guess what I must have felt on seeing your sister as fond of him as ever,and on being assured that she was to marry him: guess what I must have felt for all your sakes.When I came to you last week and found you alone, I came determined to know the truth;though irresolute what to do when it _was_ known.My behaviour must have seemed strange to you then; but now you will comprehend it.To suffer you all to be so deceived; to see your sister—but what could I do?I had no hope of interfering with success;and sometimes I thought your sister’s influence might yet reclaim him. But now,after such dishonorable usage, who can tell what were his designs on her.Whatever they may have been, however, she may now,and hereafter doubtless _will_ turn with gratitude towards her own condition,when she compares it with that of my poor Eliza,when she considers the wretched and hopeless situation of this poor girl,and pictures her to herself, with an affection for him so strong, still as strong as her own,and with a mind tormented by self-reproach, which must attend her through life.Surely this comparison must have its use with her. She will feel her own sufferings to be nothing.They proceed from no misconduct, and can bring no disgrace. On the contrary,every friend must be made still more her friend by them. Concern for her unhappiness,and respect for her fortitude under it, must strengthen every attachment. Use your own discretion,however, in communicating to her what I have told you. You must know best what will be its effect;but had I not seriously, and from my heart believed it might be of service,might lessen her regrets, I would not have suffered myself to trouble you with this account of my family afflictions,with a recital which may seem to have been intended to raise myself at the expense of others.”
Elinor’s thanks followed this speech with grateful earnestness;attended too with the assurance of her expecting material advantage to Marianne,from the communication of what had passed.
“I have been more pained,” said she, “by her endeavors to acquit him than by all the rest;for it irritates her mind more than the most perfect conviction of his unworthiness can do. Now,though at first she will suffer much, I am sure she will soon become easier. Have you,” she continued, after a short silence, “ever seen Mr. Willoughby since you left him at Barton?”
“Yes,” he replied gravely, “once I have. One meeting was unavoidable.”
Elinor, startled by his manner, looked at him anxiously, saying,
“What?have you met him to—”
“I could meet him no other way. Eliza had confessed to me, though most reluctantly,the name of her lover; and when he returned to town, which was within a fortnight after myself,we met by appointment, he to defend, I to punish his conduct. We returned unwounded,and the meeting, therefore, never got abroad.”
Elinor sighed over the fancied necessity of this;but to a man and a soldier she presumed not to censure it.
“Such,” said Colonel Brandon, after a pause,“has been the unhappy resemblance between the fate of mother and daughter!and so imperfectly have I discharged my trust!”
“Is she still in town?”
“No; as soon as she recovered from her lying-in, for I found her near her delivery,I removed her and her child into the country, and there she remains.”
Recollecting, soon afterwards, that he was probably dividing Elinor from her sister,he put an end to his visit, receiving from her again the same grateful acknowledgments,and leaving her full of compassion and esteem for him.
CHAPTER XXXII.
When the particulars of this conversation were repeated by Miss Dashwood to her sister,as they very soon were, the effect on her was not entirely such as the former had hoped to see.Not that Marianne appeared to distrust the truth of any part of it,for she listened to it all with the most steady and submissive attention,made neither objection nor remark, attempted no vindication of Willoughby,and seemed to show by her tears that she felt it to be impossible.But though this behaviour assured Elinor that the conviction of this guilt _was_ carried home to her mind,though she saw with satisfaction the effect of it,in her no longer avoiding Colonel Brandon when he called, in her speaking to him,even voluntarily speaking, with a kind of compassionate respect,and though she saw her spirits less violently irritated than before,she did not see her less wretched. Her mind did become settled,but it was settled in a gloomy dejection.She felt the loss of Willoughby’s character yet more heavily than she had felt the loss of his heart;his seduction and desertion of Miss Williams, the misery of that poor girl,and the doubt of what his designs might _once_ have been on herself,preyed altogether so much on her spirits,that she could not bring herself to speak of what she felt even to Elinor; and,brooding over her sorrows in silence, gave more pain to her sister than could have been communicated by the most open and most frequent confession of them.
To give the feelings or the language of Mrs.Dashwood on receiving and answering Elinor’s letter would be only to give a repetition of what her daughters had already felt and said;of a disappointment hardly less painful than Marianne’s,and an indignation even greater than Elinor’s. Long letters from her,quickly succeeding each other, arrived to tell all that she suffered and thought;to express her anxious solicitude for Marianne,and entreat she would bear up with fortitude under this misfortune.Bad indeed must the nature of Marianne’s affliction be, when her mother could talk of fortitude!mortifying and humiliating must be the origin of those regrets,which _she_ could wish her not to indulge!
Against the interest of her own individual comfort, Mrs.Dashwood had determined that it would be better for Marianne to be any where, at that time,than at Barton, where every thing within her view would be bringing back the past in the strongest and most afflicting manner,by constantly placing Willoughby before her, such as she had always seen him there.She recommended it to her daughters, therefore, by all means not to shorten their visit to Mrs.Jennings; the length of which, though never exactly fixed,had been expected by all to comprise at least five or six weeks. A variety of occupations,of objects, and of company, which could not be procured at Barton, would be inevitable there,and might yet, she hoped, cheat Marianne, at times, into some interest beyond herself,and even into some amusement, much as the ideas of both might now be spurned by her.
From all danger of seeing Willoughby again,her mother considered her to be at least equally safe in town as in the country,since his acquaintance must now be dropped by all who called themselves her friends.Design could never bring them in each other’s way:negligence could never leave them exposed to a surprise;and chance had less in its favour in the crowd of London than even in the retirement of Barton,where it might force him before her while paying that visit at Allenham on his marriage, which Mrs.Dashwood, from foreseeing at first as a probable event,had brought herself to expect as a certain one.
She had yet another reason for wishing her children to remain where they were;a letter from her son-in-law had told her that he and his wife were to be in town before the middle of February,and she judged it right that they should sometimes see their brother.
Marianne had promised to be guided by her mother’s opinion,and she submitted to it therefore without opposition,though it proved perfectly different from what she wished and expected,though she felt it to be entirely wrong, formed on mistaken grounds,and that by requiring her longer continuance in London it deprived her of the only possible alleviation of her wretchedness,the personal sympathy of her mother, and doomed her to such society and such scenes as must prevent her ever knowing a moment’s rest.
But it was a matter of great consolation to her,that what brought evil to herself would bring good to her sister; and Elinor, on the other hand,suspecting that it would not be in her power to avoid Edward entirely,comforted herself by thinking, that though their longer stay would therefore militate against her own happiness,it would be better for Marianne than an immediate return into Devonshire.
Her carefulness in guarding her sister from ever hearing Willoughby’s name mentioned,was not thrown away. Marianne, though without knowing it herself, reaped all its advantage;for neither Mrs. Jennings, nor Sir John, nor even Mrs. Palmer herself,ever spoke of him before her. Elinor wished that the same forbearance could have extended towards herself,but that was impossible, and she was obliged to listen day after day to the indignation of them all.
Sir John, could not have thought it possible.“A man of whom he had always had such reason to think well!Such a good-natured fellow!He did not believe there was a bolder rider in England!It was an unaccountable business. He wished him at the devil with all his heart.He would not speak another word to him, meet him where he might, for all the world!No, not if it were to be by the side of Barton covert,and they were kept watching for two hours together. Such a scoundrel of a fellow!such a deceitful dog!It was only the last time they met that he had offered him one of Folly’s puppies!and this was the end of it!”
Mrs. Palmer, in her way, was equally angry.“She was determined to drop his acquaintance immediately,and she was very thankful that she had never been acquainted with him at all.She wished with all her heart Combe Magna was not so near Cleveland; but it did not signify,for it was a great deal too far off to visit;she hated him so much that she was resolved never to mention his name again,and she should tell everybody she saw, how good-for-nothing he was.”
The rest of Mrs. Palmer’s sympathy was shown in procuring all the particulars in her power of the approaching marriage,and communicating them to Elinor. She could soon tell at what coachmaker’s the new carriage was building,by what painter Mr. Willoughby’s portrait was drawn,and at what warehouse Miss Grey’s clothes might be seen.
The calm and polite unconcern of Lady Middleton on the occasion was a happy relief to Elinor’s spirits,oppressed as they often were by the clamorous kindness of the others.It was a great comfort to her to be sure of exciting no interest in _one_ person at least among their circle of friends:a great comfort to know that there was _one_ who would meet her without feeling any curiosity after particulars, or any anxiety for her sister’s health.
Every qualification is raised at times, by the circumstances of the moment,to more than its real value; and she was sometimes worried down by officious condolence to rate good-breeding as more indispensable to comfort than good-nature.
Lady Middleton expressed her sense of the affair about once every day, or twice,if the subject occurred very often, by saying, “It is very shocking, indeed!” and by the means of this continual though gentle vent,was able not only to see the Miss Dashwoods from the first without the smallest emotion,but very soon to see them without recollecting a word of the matter;and having thus supported the dignity of her own sex,and spoken her decided censure of what was wrong in the other,she thought herself at liberty to attend to the interest of her own assemblies,and therefore determined (though rather against the opinion of Sir John) that as Mrs.Willoughby would at once be a woman of elegance and fortune,to leave her card with her as soon as she married.
Colonel Brandon’s delicate, unobtrusive enquiries were never unwelcome to Miss Dashwood.He had abundantly earned the privilege of intimate discussion of her sister’s disappointment,by the friendly zeal with which he had endeavoured to soften it,and they always conversed with confidence.His chief reward for the painful exertion of disclosing past sorrows and present humiliations,was given in the pitying eye with which Marianne sometimes observed him,and the gentleness of her voice whenever (though it did not often happen) she was obliged,or could oblige herself to speak to him._These_ assured him that his exertion had produced an increase of good-will towards himself,and _these_ gave Elinor hopes of its being farther augmented hereafter; but Mrs. Jennings,who knew nothing of all this, who knew only that the Colonel continued as grave as ever,and that she could neither prevail on him to make the offer himself,nor commission her to make it for him, began, at the end of two days, to think that,instead of Midsummer, they would not be married till Michaelmas,and by the end of a week that it would not be a match at all.The good understanding between the Colonel and Miss Dashwood seemed rather to declare that the honours of the mulberry-tree,the canal, and the yew arbour, would all be made over to _her;_ and Mrs. Jennings had,for some time ceased to think at all of Mrs. Ferrars.
Early in February, within a fortnight from the receipt of Willoughby’s letter,Elinor had the painful office of informing her sister that he was married.She had taken care to have the intelligence conveyed to herself,as soon as it was known that the ceremony was over,as she was desirous that Marianne should not receive the first notice of it from the public papers,which she saw her eagerly examining every morning.
She received the news with resolute composure; made no observation on it,and at first shed no tears; but after a short time they would burst out,and for the rest of the day, she was in a state hardly less pitiable than when she first learnt to expect the event.
The Willoughbys left town as soon as they were married; and Elinor now hoped,as there could be no danger of her seeing either of them, to prevail on her sister,who had never yet left the house since the blow first fell,to go out again by degrees as she had done before.
About this time the two Miss Steeles, lately arrived at their cousin’s house in Bartlett’s Buildings,Holburn, presented themselves again before their more grand relations in Conduit and Berkeley Streets;and were welcomed by them all with great cordiality.
Elinor only was sorry to see them. Their presence always gave her pain,and she hardly knew how to make a very gracious return to the overpowering delight of Lucy in finding her _still_ in town.
“I should have been quite disappointed if I had not found you here _still_,” said she repeatedly,with a strong emphasis on the word. “But I always thought I _should_.I was almost sure you would not leave London yet awhile; though you _told_ me, you know, at Barton,that you should not stay above a _month_. But I thought, at the time,that you would most likely change your mind when it came to the point.It would have been such a great pity to have went away before your brother and sister came.And now to be sure you will be in no _hurry_ to be gone.I am amazingly glad you did not keep to _your word_.”
Elinor perfectly understood her, and was forced to use all her self-command to make it appear that she did _not_.
“Well, my dear,” said Mrs. Jennings, “and how did you travel?”
“Not in the stage, I assure you,” replied Miss Steele, with quick exultation;“we came post all the way, and had a very smart beau to attend us. Dr. Davies was coming to town,and so we thought we’d join him in a post-chaise; and he behaved very genteelly,and paid ten or twelve shillings more than we did.”
“Oh, oh!” cried Mrs. Jennings; “very pretty, indeed!and the Doctor is a single man, I warrant you.”
“There now,” said Miss Steele, affectedly simpering, “everybody laughs at me so about the Doctor,and I cannot think why. My cousins say they are sure I have made a conquest;but for my part I declare I never think about him from one hour’s end to another. ‘Lord!here comes your beau, Nancy,’ my cousin said t’other day,when she saw him crossing the street to the house. My beau, indeed!said I—I cannot think who you mean. The Doctor is no beau of mine.”
“Aye, aye, that is very pretty talking—but it won’t do—the Doctor is the man, I see.”
“No, indeed!” replied her cousin, with affected earnestness, “and I beg you will contradict it, if you ever hear it talked of.”
Mrs. Jennings directly gave her the gratifying assurance that she certainly would _not_,and Miss Steele was made completely happy.
“I suppose you will go and stay with your brother and sister, Miss Dashwood, when they come to town,” said Lucy, returning, after a cessation of hostile hints, to the charge.
“No, I do not think we shall.”
“Oh, yes, I dare say you will.”
Elinor would not humour her by farther opposition.
“What a charming thing it is that Mrs. Dashwood can spare you both for so long a time together!”
“Long a time, indeed!” interposed Mrs. Jennings. “Why, their visit is but just begun!”
Lucy was silenced.
“I am sorry we cannot see your sister, Miss Dashwood,” said Miss Steele.“I am sorry she is not well—” for Marianne had left the room on their arrival.
“You are very good. My sister will be equally sorry to miss the pleasure of seeing you;but she has been very much plagued lately with nervous head-aches,which make her unfit for company or conversation.”
“Oh, dear, that is a great pity!but such old friends as Lucy and me!—I think she might see _us;_ and I am sure we would not speak a word.”
Elinor, with great civility, declined the proposal. Her sister was perhaps laid down upon the bed,or in her dressing gown, and therefore not able to come to them.
“Oh, if that’s all,” cried Miss Steele, “we can just as well go and see _her_.”
Elinor began to find this impertinence too much for her temper;but she was saved the trouble of checking it, by Lucy’s sharp reprimand, which now,as on many occasions, though it did not give much sweetness to the manners of one sister,was of advantage in governing those of the other.
CHAPTER XXXIII.
After some opposition, Marianne yielded to her sister’s entreaties,and consented to go out with her and Mrs. Jennings one morning for half an hour.She expressly conditioned, however, for paying no visits,and would do no more than accompany them to Gray’s in Sackville Street,where Elinor was carrying on a negotiation for the exchange of a few old-fashioned jewels of her mother.
When they stopped at the door, Mrs. Jennings recollected that there was a lady at the other end of the street on whom she ought to call;and as she had no business at Gray’s, it was resolved,that while her young friends transacted their’s, she should pay her visit and return for them.
On ascending the stairs, the Miss Dashwoods found so many people before them in the room,that there was not a person at liberty to tend to their orders; and they were obliged to wait.All that could be done was, to sit down at that end of the counter which seemed to promise the quickest succession;one gentleman only was standing there, and it is probable that Elinor was not without hope of exciting his politeness to a quicker despatch.But the correctness of his eye, and the delicacy of his taste, proved to be beyond his politeness.He was giving orders for a toothpick-case for himself, and till its size, shape,and ornaments were determined, all of which,after examining and debating for a quarter of an hour over every toothpick-case in the shop,were finally arranged by his own inventive fancy,he had no leisure to bestow any other attention on the two ladies,than what was comprised in three or four very broad stares;a kind of notice which served to imprint on Elinor the remembrance of a person and face, of strong,natural, sterling insignificance, though adorned in the first style of fashion.
Marianne was spared from the troublesome feelings of contempt and resentment,on this impertinent examination of their features,and on the puppyism of his manner in deciding on all the different horrors of the different toothpick-cases presented to his inspection,by remaining unconscious of it all; for she was as well able to collect her thoughts within herself,and be as ignorant of what was passing around her, in Mr. Gray’s shop, as in her own bedroom.
At last the affair was decided. The ivory, the gold, and the pearls, all received their appointment,and the gentleman having named the last day on which his existence could be continued without the possession of the toothpick-case,drew on his gloves with leisurely care, and bestowing another glance on the Miss Dashwoods,but such a one as seemed rather to demand than express admiration,walked off with a happy air of real conceit and affected indifference.
Elinor lost no time in bringing her business forward, was on the point of concluding it,when another gentleman presented himself at her side. She turned her eyes towards his face,and found him with some surprise to be her brother.
Their affection and pleasure in meeting was just enough to make a very creditable appearance in Mr.Gray’s shop. John Dashwood was really far from being sorry to see his sisters again;it rather gave them satisfaction; and his inquiries after their mother were respectful and attentive.
Elinor found that he and Fanny had been in town two days.
“I wished very much to call upon you yesterday,” said he, “but it was impossible,for we were obliged to take Harry to see the wild beasts at Exeter Exchange;and we spent the rest of the day with Mrs. Ferrars. Harry was vastly pleased._This_ morning I had fully intended to call on you, if I could possibly find a spare half hour,but one has always so much to do on first coming to town. I am come here to bespeak Fanny a seal.But tomorrow I think I shall certainly be able to call in Berkeley Street,and be introduced to your friend Mrs. Jennings. I understand she is a woman of very good fortune.And the Middletons too, you must introduce me to _them_. As my mother-in-law’s relations,I shall be happy to show them every respect. They are excellent neighbours to you in the country, I understand.”
“Excellent indeed. Their attention to our comfort, their friendliness in every particular, is more than I can express.”
“I am extremely glad to hear it, upon my word; extremely glad indeed. But so it ought to be;they are people of large fortune, they are related to you,and every civility and accommodation that can serve to make your situation pleasant might be reasonably expected.And so you are most comfortably settled in your little cottage and want for nothing!Edward brought us a most charming account of the place: the most complete thing of its kind,he said, that ever was, and you all seemed to enjoy it beyond any thing.It was a great satisfaction to us to hear it, I assure you.”
Elinor did feel a little ashamed of her brother;and was not sorry to be spared the necessity of answering him, by the arrival of Mrs.Jennings’s servant, who came to tell her that his mistress waited for them at the door.
Mr. Dashwood attended them down stairs, was introduced to Mrs. Jennings at the door of her carriage,and repeating his hope of being able to call on them the next day, took leave.
His visit was duly paid. He came with a pretence at an apology from their sister-in-law,for not coming too; “but she was so much engaged with her mother,that really she had no leisure for going any where.” Mrs. Jennings, however, assured him directly,that she should not stand upon ceremony, for they were all cousins, or something like it,and she should certainly wait on Mrs. John Dashwood very soon, and bring her sisters to see her.His manners to _them_, though calm, were perfectly kind; to Mrs. Jennings, most attentively civil;and on Colonel Brandon’s coming in soon after himself,he eyed him with a curiosity which seemed to say, that he only wanted to know him to be rich, to be equally civil to _him_.
After staying with them half an hour, he asked Elinor to walk with him to Conduit Street,and introduce him to Sir John and Lady Middleton. The weather was remarkably fine,and she readily consented. As soon as they were out of the house, his enquiries began.
“Who is Colonel Brandon?Is he a man of fortune?”
“Yes; he has very good property in Dorsetshire.”
“I am glad of it. He seems a most gentlemanlike man; and I think, Elinor,I may congratulate you on the prospect of a very respectable establishment in life.”
“Me, brother!what do you mean?”
“He likes you. I observed him narrowly, and am convinced of it. What is the amount of his fortune?”
“I believe about two thousand a year.”
“Two thousand a-year;” and then working himself up to a pitch of enthusiastic generosity, he added,“Elinor, I wish with all my heart it were _twice_ as much, for your sake.”
“Indeed I believe you,” replied Elinor; “but I am very sure that Colonel Brandon has not the smallest wish of marrying _me_. ”