But, these were the mere wanderings of a mind unable wholly to detach itself from old companions and associations, though enabled to fix itself steadily on one object, and resolved not to be turned aside by any consideration. Her fears for Sikes would have been more powerful inducements to recoil while there was yet time; but she had stipulated that her secret should be rigidly kept, she had dropped no clue which could lead to his discovery, she had refused, even for his sake, a refuge from all the guilt and wretchedness that encompasses her—and what more could she do!She was resolved.
Though all her mental struggles terminated in this conclusion,they forced themselves upon her, again and again,and left their traces too. She grew pale and thin,even within a few days. At times,she took no heed of what was passing before her,or no part in conversations where once,she would have been the loudest. At other times,she laughed without merriment,and was noisy without a moment afterwards—she sat silent and dejected,brooding with her head upon her hands,while the very effort by which she roused herself,told, more forcibly than even these indications,that she was ill at ease,and that her thoughts were occupied with matters very different and distant from those in the course of discussion by her companions.
It was Sunday night,and the bell of the nearest church struck the hour.Sikes and the Jew were talking,but they paused to listen.The girl looked up from the low seat on which she crouched,and listened too. Eleven.
“An hour this side of midnight,” said Sikes,raising the blind to look out and returning to his seat.“Dark and heavy it is too.A good night for business this.”
“Ah!” replied Fagin. “What a pity, Bill, my dear,that there’s none quite ready to be done.”
“You’re right for once,” replied Sikes gruffly.“It is a pity, for I’m in the humour too.”
Fagin sighed, and shook his head despondingly.
“We must make up for lost time when we’ve got things into a good train.That’s all I know,” said Sikes.
“That’s the way to talk, my dear,” replied Fagin,venturing to pat him on the shoulder.“It does me good to hear you.”
“Does you good, does it!” cried Sikes. “Well, so be it.”
“Ha!ha!ha!” laughed Fagin, as if he were relieved by even this concession.“You’re like yourself tonight, Bill.Quite like yourself.”
“I don’t feel like myself when you lay that withered old claw on my shoulder,so take it away,” said Sikes,casting off the Jew’s hand.
“It make you nervous, Bill,—reminds you of being nabbed, does it?” said Fagin, determined not to be offended.
“Reminds me of being nabbed by the devil,” returned Sikes. “There never was another man with such a face as yours,unless it was your father,and I suppose _he_ is singeing his grizzled red beard by this time,unless you came straight from the old ’un without any father at all betwixt you; which I shouldn’t wonder at, a bit.”
Fagin offered no reply to this compliment: but,pulling Sikes by the sleeve,pointed his finger towards Nancy,who had taken advantage of the foregoing conversation to put on her bonnet,and was now leaving the room.
“Hallo!” cried Sikes. “Nance.Where’s the gal going to at this time of night?”
“Not far.”
“What answer’s that?” retorted Sikes. “Do you hear me?”
“I don’t know where,” replied the girl.
“Then I do,” said Sikes,more in the spirit of obstinacy than because he had any real objection to the girl going where she listed. “Nowhere. Sit down.”
“I’m not well. I told you that before,” rejoined the girl. “I want a breath of air.”
“Put your head out of the winder,” replied Sikes.
“There’s not enough there,” said the girl.“I want it in the street.”
“Then you won’t have it,” replied Sikes.With which assurance he rose, locked the door,took the key out, and pulling her bonnet from her head,flung it up to the top of an old press. “There,” said the robber. “Now stop quietly where you are, will you?”
“It’s not such a matter as a bonnet would keep me,” said the girl turning very pale. “What do you mean, Bill?Do you know what you’re doing?”
“Know what I’m—Oh!” cried Sikes, turning to Fagin,“she’s out of her senses, you know,or she daren’t talk to me in that way.”
“You’ll drive me on the something desperate,” muttered the girl placing both hands upon her breast,as though to keep down by force some violent outbreak.“Let me go, will you,—this minute—this instant.”
“No!” said Sikes.
“Tell him to let me go, Fagin. He had better.It’ll be better for him. Do you hear me?” cried Nancy stamping her foot upon the ground.
“Hear you!” repeated Sikes turning round in his chair to confront her. “Aye!And if I hear you for half a minute longer,the dog shall have such a grip on your throat as’ll tear some of that screaming voice out. Wot has come over you, you jade!Wot is it?”
“Let me go,” said the girl with great earnestness;then sitting herself down on the floor,before the door, she said, “Bill, let me go;you don’t know what you are doing. You don’t, indeed.For only one hour—do—do!”
“Cut my limbs off one by one!” cried Sikes, seizing her roughly by the arm,“If I don’t think the gal’s stark raving mad. Get up.”
“Not till you let me go—not till you let me go—Never—never!” screamed the girl. Sikes looked on, for a minute,watching his opportunity,and suddenly pinioning her hands dragged her,struggling and wrestling with him by the way,into a small room adjoining,where he sat himself on a bench,and thrusting her into a chair, held her down by force.She struggled and implored by turns until twelve o’clock had struck,and then, wearied and exhausted,ceased to contest the point any further.With a caution, backed by many oaths,to make no more efforts to go out that night,Sikes left her to recover at leisure and rejoined Fagin.
“Whew!” said the housebreaker wiping the perspiration from his face.“Wot a precious strange gal that is!”
“You may say that, Bill,” replied Fagin thoughtfully. “You may say that.”
“Wot did she take it into her head to go out tonight for, do you think?” asked Sikes. “Come;you should know her better than me. Wot does it mean?”
“Obstinacy; woman’s obstinacy, I suppose, my dear.”
“Well, I suppose it is,” growled Sikes.“I thought I had tamed her, but she’s as bad as ever.”
“Worse,” said Fagin thoughtfully.“I never knew her like this, for such a little cause.”
“Nor I,” said Sikes.“I think she’s got a touch of that fever in her blood yet,and it won’t come out—eh?”
“Like enough.”
“I’ll let her a little blood,without troubling the doctor,if she’s took that way again,” said Sikes.
Fagin nodded an expressive approval of this mode of treatment.
“She was hanging about me all day, and night too,when I was stretched on my back; and you,like a blackhearted wolf as you are,kept yourself aloof,” said Sikes. “We was poor too,all the time, and I think, one way or other,it’s worried and fretted her;and that being shut up here so long has made her restless—eh?”
“That’s it, my dear,” replied the Jew in a whisper. “Hush!”
As he uttered these words,the girl herself appeared and resumed her former seat.Her eyes were swollen and red;she rocked herself to and fro; tossed her head; and,after a little time, burst out laughing.
“Why, now she’s on the other tack!” exclaimed Sikes, turning a look of excessive surprise on his companion.
Fagin nodded to him to take no further notice just then;and, in a few minutes,the girl subsided into her accustomed demeanour.Whispering Sikes that there was no fear of her relapsing,Fagin took up his hat and bade him good-night.He paused when he reached the room-door,and looking round, asked if somebody would light him down the dark stairs.
“Light him down,” said Sikes, who was filling his pipe.“It’s a pity he should break his neck himself,and disappoint the sight-seers. Show him a light.”