As we came out of the prison through the lodge,I found that the great importance of my guardian was appreciated by the turnkeys, no less than by those whom they held in charge. “Well, Mr. Wemmick,” said the turnkey, who kept us between the two studded and spiked lodge gates, and who carefully locked one before he unlocked the other, “what’s Mr. Jaggers going to do with that water-side murder?Is he going to make it manslaughter,or what’s he going to make of it?”
“Why don’t you ask him?” returned Wemmick.
“O yes, I dare say!” said the turnkey.
“Now, that’s the way with them here, Mr. Pip,” remarked Wemmick, turning to me with his post-office elongated.“They don’t mind what they ask of me, the subordinate;but you’ll never catch ’em asking any questions of my principal. ”
“Is this young gentleman one of the ’prentices or articled ones of your office?” asked the turnkey, with a grin at Mr. Wemmick’s humour.
“There he goes again, you see!” cried Wemmick, “I told you so!Asks another question of the subordinate before his first is dry!Well, supposing Mr. Pip is one of them?”
“Why then,” said the turnkey, grinning again,“he knows what Mr. Jaggers is.”
“Yah!” cried Wemmick, suddenly hitting out at the turnkey in a facetious way,“you’re dumb as one of your own keys when you have to do with my principal,you know you are. Let us out, you old fox,or I’ll get him to bring an action against you for false imprisonment. ”
The turnkey laughed, and gave us good day,and stood laughing at us over the spikes of the wicket when we descended the steps into the street.
“Mind you, Mr. Pip,” said Wemmick, gravely in my ear,as he took my arm to be more confidential;“I don’t know that Mr.Jaggers does a better thing than the way in which he keeps himself so high.He’s always so high.His constant height is of a piece with his immense abilities.That Colonel durst no more take leave of _him_,than that turnkey durst ask him his intentions respecting a case.Then, between his height and them,he slips in his subordinate,—don’t you see?—and so he has ’em, soul and body.”
I was very much impressed, and not for the first time,by my guardian’s subtlety. To confess the truth,I very heartily wished, and not for the first time,that I had had some other guardian of minor abilities.
Mr. Wemmick and I parted at the office in Little Britain,where suppliants for Mr.Jaggers’s notice were lingering about as usual,and I returned to my watch in the street of the coach-office,with some three hours on hand.I consumed the whole time in thinking how strange it was that I should be encompassed by all this taint of prison and crime; that, in my childhood out on our lonely marshes on a winter evening, I should have first encountered it; that, it should have reappeared on two occasions, starting out like a stain that was faded but not gone; that, it should in this new way pervade my fortune and advancement. While my mind was thus engaged, I thought of the beautiful young Estella, proud and refined, coming towards me, and I thought with absolute abhorrence of the contrast between the jail and her. I wished that Wemmick had not met me, or that I had not yielded to him and gone with him, so that, of all days in the year on this day, I might not have had Newgate in my breath and on my clothes. I beat the prison dust off my feet as I sauntered to and fro, and I shook it out of my dress, and I exhaled its air from my lungs. So contaminated did I feel, remembering who was coming, that the coach came quickly after all, and I was not yet free from the soiling consciousness of Mr. Wemmick’s conservatory, when I saw her face at the coach window and her hand waving to me.
What _was_ the nameless shadow which again in that one instant had passed?
Chapter XXXIII.
In her furred travelling-dress,Estella seemed more delicately beautiful than she had ever seemed yet,even in my eyes. Her manner was more winning than she had cared to let it be to me before, and I thought I saw Miss Havisham’s influence in the change.
We stood in the Inn Yard while she pointed out her luggage to me,and when it was all collected I remembered—having forgotten everything but herself in the meanwhile—that I knew nothing of her destination.
“I am going to Richmond,” she told me. “Our lesson is,that there are two Richmonds,one in Surrey and one in Yorkshire,and that mine is the Surrey Richmond.The distance is ten miles. I am to have a carriage,and you are to take me. This is my purse,and you are to pay my charges out of it. O,you must take the purse!We have no choice, you and I,but to obey our instructions.We are not free to follow our own devices, you and I.”
As she looked at me in giving me the purse,I hoped there was an inner meaning in her words.She said them slightingly, but not with displeasure.
“A carriage will have to be sent for, Estella.Will you rest here a little?”
“Yes, I am to rest here a little,and I am to drink some tea,and you are to take care of me the while.”
She drew her arm through mine, as if it must be done,and I requested a waiter who had been staring at the coach like a man who had never seen such a thing in his life, to show us a private sitting-room. Upon that, he pulled out a napkin, as if it were a magic clue without which he couldn’t find the way upstairs, and led us to the black hole of the establishment, fitted up with a diminishing mirror (quite a superfluous article, considering the hole’s proportions), an anchovy sauce-cruet, and somebody’s pattens. On my objecting to this retreat, he took us into another room with a dinner-table for thirty, and in the grate a scorched leaf of a copy-book under a bushel of coal-dust. Having looked at this extinct conflagration and shaken his head, he took my order; which, proving to be merely, “Some tea for the lady,” sent him out of the room in a very low state of mind.
I was, and I am, sensible that the air of this chamber,in its strong combination of stable with soup-stock,might have led one to infer that the coaching department was not doing well,and that the enterprising proprietor was boiling down the horses for the refreshment department. Yet the room was all in all to me, Estella being in it. I thought that with her I could have been happy there for life. (I was not at all happy there at the time, observe, and I knew it well.)
“Where are you going to, at Richmond?” I asked Estella.
“I am going to live,” said she, “at a great expense,with a lady there, who has the power—or says she has—of taking me about,and introducing me,and showing people to me and showing me to people.”
“I suppose you will be glad of variety and admiration?”
“Yes, I suppose so.”
She answered so carelessly, that I said,“You speak of yourself as if you were some one else.”
“Where did you learn how I speak of others?Come, come,” said Estella, smiling delightfully,“you must not expect me to go to school to _you_;I must talk in my own way. How do you thrive with Mr. Pocket?”
“I live quite pleasantly there;at least—” It appeared to me that I was losing a chance.
“At least?” repeated Estella.
“As pleasantly as I could anywhere, away from you.”
“You silly boy,” said Estella, quite composedly,“how can you talk such nonsense?Your friend Mr. Matthew, I believe,is superior to the rest of his family?”
“Very superior indeed. He is nobody’s enemy—”
“Don’t add but his own,” interposed Estella,“for I hate that class of man.But he really is disinterested,and above small jealousy and spite, I have heard?”
“I am sure I have every reason to say so.”