They had this melancholy retreat to themselves,and seated on the divan enclosing the central steam-radiator,they were staring silently at the glass cabinets mounted in ebonised wood which contained the recovered fragments of Ilium.
"It's odd," Madame Olenska said,"I never came here before."
"Ah, well--. Some day, I suppose,it will be a great Museum."
"Yes," she assented absently.
She stood up and wandered across the room. Archer,remaining seated, watched the light movements of her figure,so girlish even under its heavy furs,the cleverly planted heron wing in her fur cap,and the way a dark curl lay like a flattened vine spiral on each cheek above the ear. His mind, as always when they first met, was wholly absorbed in the delicious details that made her herself and no other. Presently he rose and approached the case before which she stood. Its glass shelves were crowded with small broken objects--hardly recognisable domestic utensils, ornaments and personal trifles--made of glass, of clay, of discoloured bronze and other time-blurred substances.
"It seems cruel," she said,"that after a while nothing matters ...any more than these little things,that used to be necessary and important to forgotten people,and now have to be guessed at under a magnifying glass and labelled: 'Use unknown.'"
"Yes; but meanwhile--"
"Ah, meanwhile--"
As she stood there, in her long sealskin coat,her hands thrust in a small round muff,her veil drawn down like a transparent mask to the tip of her nose,and the bunch of violets he had brought her stirring with her quickly-taken breath, it seemed incredible that this pure harmony of line and colour should ever suffer the stupid law of change.
"Meanwhile everything matters--that concerns you, " he said.
She looked at him thoughtfully,and turned back to the divan.He sat down beside her and waited;but suddenly he heard a step echoing far off down the empty rooms,and felt the pressure of the minutes.
"What is it you wanted to tell me?" she asked, as if she had received the same warning.
"What I wanted to tell you?" he rejoined. "Why,that I believe you came to New York because you were afraid. "
"Afraid?"
"Of my coming to Washington."
She looked down at her muff,and he saw her hands stir in it uneasily.
"Well--?"
"Well--yes," she said.
"You _were_ afraid?You knew--?"
"Yes: I knew ..."
"Well, then?" he insisted.
"Well, then: this is better, isn't it?" she returned with a long questioning sigh.
"Better--?"
"We shall hurt others less. Isn't it, after all,what you always wanted?"
"To have you here, you mean--in reach and yet out of reach?To meet you in this way, on the sly?It's the very reverse of what I want.I told you the other day what I wanted."
She hesitated. "And you still think this--worse?"
"A thousand times!" He paused. "It would be easy to lie to you;but the truth is I think it detestable."
"Oh, so do I!" she cried with a deep breath of relief.
He sprang up impatiently. "Well,then--it's my turn to ask: what is it, in God's name,that you think better?"
She hung her head and continued to clasp and unclasp her hands in her muff.The step drew nearer,and a guardian in a braided cap walked listlessly through the room like a ghost stalking through a necropolis. They fixed their eyes simultaneously on the case opposite them, and when the official figure had vanished down a vista of mummies and sarcophagi Archer spoke again.
"What do you think better?"
Instead of answering she murmured:"I promised Granny to stay with her because it seemed to me that here I should be safer."
"From me?"
She bent her head slightly, without looking at him.
"Safer from loving me?"
Her profile did not stir,but he saw a tear overflow on her lashes and hang in a mesh of her veil.
"Safer from doing irreparable harm.Don't let us be like all the others!" she protested.
"What others?I don't profess to be different from my kind.I'm consumed by the same wants and the same longings."
She glanced at him with a kind of terror,and he saw a faint colour steal into her cheeks.
"Shall I--once come to you; and then go home?" she suddenly hazarded in a low clear voice.
The blood rushed to the young man's forehead. "Dearest!" he said, without moving.It seemed as if he held his heart in his hands,like a full cup that the least motion might overbrim.
Then her last phrase struck his ear and his face clouded. "Go home?What do you mean by going home?"
"Home to my husband."
"And you expect me to say yes to that?"
She raised her troubled eyes to his."What else is there?I can't stay here and lie to the people who've been good to me. "
"But that's the very reason why I ask you to come away!"
"And destroy their lives,when they've helped me to remake mine?"
Archer sprang to his feet and stood looking down on her in inarticulate despair.It would have been easy to say: "Yes, come; come once." He knew the power she would put in his hands if she consented;there would be no difficulty then in persuading her not to go back to her husband.
But something silenced the word on his lips.A sort of passionate honesty in her made it inconceivable that he should try to draw her into that familiar trap. "If I were to let her come," he said to himself, "I should have to let her go again." And that was not to be imagined.
But he saw the shadow of the lashes on her wet cheek, and wavered.
"After all," he began again,"we have lives of our own....There's no use attempting the impossible.You're so unprejudiced about some things, so used,as you say, to looking at the Gorgon,that I don't know why you're afraid to face our case,and see it as it really is--unless you think the sacrifice is not worth making. "
She stood up also, her lips tightening under a rapid frown.
"Call it that, then--I must go," she said,drawing her little watch from her bosom.
She turned away, and he followed and caught her by the wrist."Well, then: come to me once," he said,his head turning suddenly at the thought of losing her;and for a second or two they looked at each other almost like enemies.
"When?" he insisted. "Tomorrow?"
She hesitated. "The day after."
"Dearest--!" he said again.
She had disengaged her wrist;but for a moment they continued to hold each other's eyes,and he saw that her face, which had grown very pale,was flooded with a deep inner radiance.His heart beat with awe:he felt that he had never before beheld love visible.
"Oh, I shall be late--good-bye. No,don't come any farther than this," she cried,walking hurriedly away down the long room,as if the reflected radiance in his eyes had frightened her.When she reached the door she turned for a moment to wave a quick farewell.
Archer walked home alone.Darkness was falling when he let himself into his house,and he looked about at the familiar objects in the hall as if he viewed them from the other side of the grave.
The parlour-maid, hearing his step,ran up the stairs to light the gas on the upper landing.
"Is Mrs. Archer in?"
"No, sir; Mrs. Archer went out in the carriage after luncheon,and hasn't come back."
With a sense of relief he entered the library and flung himself down in his armchair. The parlour-maid followed, bringing the student lamp and shaking some coals onto the dying fire. When she left he continued to sit motionless, his elbows on his knees, his chin on his clasped hands, his eyes fixed on the red grate.
He sat there without conscious thoughts,without sense of the lapse of time,in a deep and grave amazement that seemed to suspend life rather than quicken it. "This was what had to be, then ... this was what had to be," he kept repeating to himself, as if he hung in the clutch of doom. What he had dreamed of had been so different that there was a mortal chill in his rapture.
The door opened and May came in.