“Be calm!I entreat you to hear me before you give vent to your hatred on my devoted head.Have I not suffered enough,that you seek to increase my misery?Life, although it may only be an accumulation of anguish,is dear to me, and I will defend it. Remember,thou hast made me more powerful than thyself;my height is superior to thine, my joints more supple.But I will not be tempted to set myself in opposition to thee.I am thy creature, and I will be even mild and docile to my natural lord and king if thou wilt also perform thy part, the which thou owest me. Oh, Frankenstein, be not equitable to every other and trample upon me alone, to whom thy justice, and even thy clemency and affection, is most due. Remember that I am thy creature; I ought to be thy Adam, but I am rather the fallen angel, whom thou drivest from joy for no misdeed. Everywhere I see bliss, from which I alone am irrevocably excluded. I was benevolent and good; misery made me a fiend. Make me happy, and I shall again be virtuous.”
“Begone!I will not hear you.There can be no community between you and me;we are enemies. Begone,or let us try our strength in a fight,in which one must fall.”
“How can I move thee?Will no entreaties cause thee to turn a favourable eye upon thy creature,who implores thy goodness and compassion?Believe me, Frankenstein, I was benevolent;my soul glowed with love and humanity;but am I not alone, miserably alone?You, my creator, abhor me;what hope can I gather from your fellow creatures, who owe me nothing?They spurn and hate me.The desert mountains and dreary glaciers are my refuge.I have wandered here many days; the caves of ice,which I only do not fear, are a dwelling to me,and the only one which man does not grudge.These bleak skies I hail,for they are kinder to me than your fellow beings.If the multitude of mankind knew of my existence,they would do as you do,and arm themselves for my destruction.Shall I not then hate them who abhor me?I will keep no terms with my enemies. I am miserable,and they shall share my wretchedness.Yet it is in your power to recompense me,and deliver them from an evil which it only remains for you to make so great,that not only you and your family,but thousands of others,shall be swallowed up in the whirlwinds of its rage.Let your compassion be moved, and do not disdain me.Listen to my tale; when you have heard that,abandon or commiserate me,as you shall judge that I deserve. But hear me.The guilty are allowed, by human laws,bloody as they are,to speak in their own defence before they are condemned.Listen to me, Frankenstein. You accuse me of murder,and yet you would, with a satisfied conscience,destroy your own creature. Oh,praise the eternal justice of man!Yet I ask you not to spare me; listen to me, and then,if you can, and if you will,destroy the work of your hands.”
“Why do you call to my remembrance,” I rejoined,“circumstances of which I shudder to reflect,that I have been the miserable origin and author?Cursed be the day, abhorred devil,in which you first saw light!Cursed (although I curse myself) be the hands that formed you!You have made me wretched beyond expression.You have left me no power to consider whether I am just to you or not. Begone!Relieve me from the sight of your detested form.”
“Thus I relieve thee, my creator,” he said,and placed his hated hands before my eyes,which I flung from me with violence;“thus I take from thee a sight which you abhor.Still thou canst listen to me and grant me thy compassion.By the virtues that I once possessed,I demand this from you. Hear my tale;it is long and strange,and the temperature of this place is not fitting to your fine sensations;come to the hut upon the mountain.The sun is yet high in the heavens;before it descends to hide itself behind your snowy precipices and illuminate another world, you will have heard my story and can decide. On you it rests, whether I quit for ever the neighbourhood of man and lead a harmless life, or become the scourge of your fellow creatures and the author of your own speedy ruin.”
As he said this he led the way across the ice;I followed. My heart was full,and I did not answer him, but as I proceeded,I weighed the various arguments that he had used and determined at least to listen to his tale. I was partly urged by curiosity, and compassion confirmed my resolution. I had hitherto supposed him to be the murderer of my brother, and I eagerly sought a confirmation or denial of this opinion. For the first time, also, I felt what the duties of a creator towards his creature were, and that I ought to render him happy before I complained of his wickedness. These motives urged me to comply with his demand. We crossed the ice, therefore, and ascended the opposite rock. The air was cold, and the rain again began to descend; we entered the hut, the fiend with an air of exultation, I with a heavy heart and depressed spirits. But I consented to listen, and seating myself by the fire which my odious companion had lighted, he thus began his tale.
Chapter 11
“It is with considerable difficulty that I remember the original era of my being; all the events of that period appear confused and indistinct. A strange multiplicity of sensations seized me, and I saw, felt, heard, and smelt at the same time; and it was, indeed, a long time before I learned to distinguish between the operations of my various senses. By degrees, I remember, a stronger light pressed upon my nerves, so that I was obliged to shut my eyes. Darkness then came over me and troubled me, but hardly had I felt this when, by opening my eyes, as I now suppose, the light poured in upon me again. I walked and, I believe, descended, but I presently found a great alteration in my sensations. Before, dark and opaque bodies had surrounded me, impervious to my touch or sight; but I now found that I could wander on at liberty, with no obstacles which I could not either surmount or avoid. The light became more and more oppressive to me, and the heat wearying me as I walked, I sought a place where I could receive shade. This was the forest near Ingolstadt; and here I lay by the side of a brook resting from my fatigue, until I felt tormented by hunger and thirst. This roused me from my nearly dormant state, and I ate some berries which I found hanging on the trees or lying on the ground. I slaked my thirst at the brook, and then lying down, was overcome by sleep.
“It was dark when I awoke; I felt cold also,and half frightened, as it were, instinctively,finding myself so desolate.Before I had quitted your apartment,on a sensation of cold,I had covered myself with some clothes,but these were insufficient to secure me from the dews of night.I was a poor, helpless, miserable wretch; I knew,and could distinguish, nothing;but feeling pain invade me on all sides,I sat down and wept.
“Soon a gentle light stole over the heavens and gave me a sensation of pleasure.I started up and beheld a radiant form rise from among the trees.[The moon] I gazed with a kind of wonder.It moved slowly, but it enlightened my path,and I again went out in search of berries.I was still cold when under one of the trees I found a huge cloak,with which I covered myself,and sat down upon the ground.No distinct ideas occupied my mind; all was confused.I felt light, and hunger, and thirst, and darkness;innumerable sounds rang in my ears,and on all sides various scents saluted me;the only object that I could distinguish was the bright moon,and I fixed my eyes on that with pleasure.
“Several changes of day and night passed,and the orb of night had greatly lessened,when I began to distinguish my sensations from each other.I gradually saw plainly the clear stream that supplied me with drink and the trees that shaded me with their foliage. I was delighted when I first discovered that a pleasant sound, which often saluted my ears, proceeded from the throats of the little winged animals who had often intercepted the light from my eyes. I began also to observe, with greater accuracy, the forms that surrounded me and to perceive the boundaries of the radiant roof of light which canopied me. Sometimes I tried to imitate the pleasant songs of the birds but was unable. Sometimes I wished to express my sensations in my own mode, but the uncouth and inarticulate sounds which broke from me frightened me into silence again.