With these words he threw the boots towards Mr. Mell,who went back a few paces to pick them up,and looked at them (very disconsolately, I was afraid),as we went on together. I observed then,for the first time,that the boots he had on were a good deal the worse for wear,and that his stocking was just breaking out in one place, like a bud.
Salem House was a square brick building with wings;of a bare and unfurnished appearance.All about it was so very quiet, that I said to Mr.Mell I supposed the boys were out;but he seemed surprised at my not knowing that it was holiday-time.That all the boys were at their several homes. That Mr.Creakle, the proprietor,was down by the sea-side with Mrs. and Miss Creakle;and that I was sent in holiday-time as a punishment for my misdoing,all of which he explained to me as we went along.
I gazed upon the schoolroom into which he took me,as the most forlorn and desolate place I had ever seen.I see it now. A long room with three long rows of desks,and six of forms, and bristling all round with pegs for hats and slates.Scraps of old copy-books and exercises litter the dirty floor.Some silkworms’ houses, made of the same materials,are scattered over the desks.Two miserable little white mice,left behind by their owner,are running up and down in a fusty castle made of pasteboard and wire,looking in all the corners with their red eyes for anything to eat.A bird, in a cage very little bigger than himself,makes a mournful rattle now and then in hopping on his perch,two inches high, or dropping from it;but neither sings nor chirps.There is a strange unwholesome smell upon the room,like mildewed corduroys, sweet apples wanting air,and rotten books. There could not well be more ink splashed about it,if it had been roofless from its first construction,and the skies had rained, snowed, hailed,and blown ink through the varying seasons of the year.
Mr. Mell having left me while he took his irreparable boots upstairs,I went softly to the upper end of the room,observing all this as I crept along.Suddenly I came upon a pasteboard placard,beautifully written, which was lying on the desk,and bore these words: ‘TAKE CARE OF HIM. HE BITES.’
I got upon the desk immediately,apprehensive of at least a great dog underneath. But,though I looked all round with anxious eyes,I could see nothing of him.I was still engaged in peering about, when Mr.Mell came back, and asked me what I did up there?
‘I beg your pardon, sir,’ says I, ‘if you please,I’m looking for the dog.’
‘Dog?’ he says. ‘What dog?’
‘Isn’t it a dog, sir?’
‘Isn’t what a dog?’
‘That’s to be taken care of, sir; that bites.’
‘No, Copperfield,’ says he, gravely, ‘that’s not a dog.That’s a boy. My instructions are, Copperfield,to put this placard on your back.I am sorry to make such a beginning with you,but I must do it.’ With that he took me down,and tied the placard,which was neatly constructed for the purpose,on my shoulders like a knapsack; and wherever I went,afterwards, I had the consolation of carrying it.
What I suffered from that placard, nobody can imagine.Whether it was possible for people to see me or not,I always fancied that somebody was reading it.It was no relief to turn round and find nobody;for wherever my back was,there I imagined somebody always to be.That cruel man with the wooden leg aggravated my sufferings.He was in authority;and if he ever saw me leaning against a tree,or a wall, or the house,he roared out from his lodge door in a stupendous voice, ‘Hallo, you sir!You Copperfield!Show that badge conspicuous, or I’ll report you!’ The playground was a bare gravelled yard,open to all the back of the house and the offices;and I knew that the servants read it,and the butcher read it, and the baker read it;that everybody, in a word,who came backwards and forwards to the house,of a morning when I was ordered to walk there,read that I was to be taken care of, for I bit,I recollect that I positively began to have a dread of myself,as a kind of wild boy who did bite.
There was an old door in this playground,on which the boys had a custom of carving their names.It was completely covered with such inscriptions.In my dread of the end of the vacation and their coming back,I could not read a boy’s name,without inquiring in what tone and with what emphasis HE would read,‘Take care of him. He bites.’ There was one boy--a certain J.Steerforth--who cut his name very deep and very often,who, I conceived, would read it in a rather strong voice,and afterwards pull my hair. There was another boy,one Tommy Traddles,who I dreaded would make game of it,and pretend to be dreadfully frightened of me.There was a third, George Demple,who I fancied would sing it. I have looked,a little shrinking creature, at that door,until the owners of all the names--there were five-and-forty of them in the school then, Mr. Mell said--seemed to send me to Coventry by general acclamation, and to cry out, each in his own way, ‘Take care of him. He bites!’
It was the same with the places at the desks and forms.It was the same with the groves of deserted bedsteads I peeped at,on my way to, and when I was in, my own bed.I remember dreaming night after night,of being with my mother as she used to be,or of going to a party at Mr. Peggotty’s,or of travelling outside the stage-coach,or of dining again with my unfortunate friend the waiter,and in all these circumstances making people scream and stare,by the unhappy disclosure that I had nothing on but my little night-shirt, and that placard.
In the monotony of my life,and in my constant apprehension of the re-opening of the school,it was such an insupportable affliction!I had long tasks every day to do with Mr. Mell;but I did them, there being no Mr.and Miss Murdstone here,and got through them without disgrace. Before,and after them, I walked about--supervised,as I have mentioned, by the man with the wooden leg.How vividly I call to mind the damp about the house,the green cracked flagstones in the court,an old leaky water-butt,and the discoloured trunks of some of the grim trees,which seemed to have dripped more in the rain than other trees,and to have blown less in the sun!At one we dined, Mr. Mell and I,at the upper end of a long bare dining-room,full of deal tables, and smelling of fat. Then,we had more tasks until tea, which Mr.Mell drank out of a blue teacup,and I out of a tin pot. All day long,and until seven or eight in the evening, Mr. Mell,at his own detached desk in the schoolroom,worked hard with pen, ink, ruler, books,and writing-paper, making out the bills (as I found) for last half-year.When he had put up his things for the night he took out his flute,and blew at it, until I almost thought he would gradually blow his whole being into the large hole at the top, and ooze away at the keys.