Then I would commence a practical demonstration, to which Dora would pay profound attention,perhaps for five minutes; when she would begin to be dreadfully tired,and would lighten the subject by curling my hair,or trying the effect of my face with my shirt-collar turned down.If I tacitly checked this playfulness, and persisted, she would look so scared and disconsolate,as she became more and more bewildered,that the remembrance of her natural gaiety when I first strayed into her path,and of her being my child-wife, would come reproachfully upon me; and I would lay the pencil down, and call for the guitar.
I had a great deal of work to do, and had many anxieties,but the same considerations made me keep them to myself. I am far from sure, now,that it was right to do this, but I did it for my child-wife’s sake. I search my breast,and I commit its secrets, if I know them, without any reservation to this paper.The old unhappy loss or want of something had, I am conscious, some place in my heart;but not to the embitterment of my life. When I walked alone in the fine weather,and thought of the summer days when all the air had been filled with my boyish enchantment,I did miss something of the realization of my dreams;but I thought it was a softened glory of the Past,which nothing could have thrown upon the present time. I did feel, sometimes, for a little while,that I could have wished my wife had been my counsellor; had had more character and purpose,to sustain me and improve me by; had been endowed with power to fill up the void which somewhere seemed to be about me;but I felt as if this were an unearthly consummation of my happiness,that never had been meant to be, and never could have been.
I was a boyish husband as to years. I had known the softening influence of no other sorrows or experiences than those recorded in these leaves.If I did any wrong, as I may have done much, I did it in mistaken love, and in my want of wisdom.I write the exact truth. It would avail me nothing to extenuate it now.
Thus it was that I took upon myself the toils and cares of our life, and had no partner in them.We lived much as before, in reference to our scrambling household arrangements;but I had got used to those, and Dora I was pleased to see was seldom vexed now.She was bright and cheerful in the old childish way, loved me dearly, and was happy with her old trifles.
When the debates were heavy--I mean as to length, not quality,for in the last respect they were not often otherwise--and I went home late,Dora would never rest when she heard my footsteps, but would always come downstairs to meet me.When my evenings were unoccupied by the pursuit for which I had qualified myself with so much pains,and I was engaged in writing at home, she would sit quietly near me, however late the hour,and be so mute, that I would often think she had dropped asleep. But generally,when I raised my head, I saw her blue eyes looking at me with the quiet attention of which I have already spoken.
‘Oh, what a weary boy!’ said Dora one night, when I met her eyes as I was shutting up my desk.
‘What a weary girl!’ said I. ‘That’s more to the purpose. You must go to bed another time, my love. It’s far too late for you.’
‘No, don’t send me to bed!’ pleaded Dora, coming to my side. ‘Pray, don’t do that!’
‘Dora!’ To my amazement she was sobbing on my neck. ‘Not well, my dear!not happy!’
‘Yes!quite well, and very happy!’ said Dora. ‘But say you’ll let me stop, and see you write.’
‘Why, what a sight for such bright eyes at midnight!’ I replied.
‘Are they bright, though?’ returned Dora, laughing. ‘I’m so glad they’re bright.’ ‘Little Vanity!’ said I.
But it was not vanity; it was only harmless delight in my admiration. I knew that very well, before she told me so.
‘If you think them pretty, say I may always stop, and see you write!’ said Dora. ‘Do you think them pretty?’
‘Very pretty.’
‘Then let me always stop and see you write.’
‘I am afraid that won’t improve their brightness, Dora.’
‘Yes, it will!Because, you clever boy, you’ll not forget me then, while you are full of silent fancies.Will you mind it, if I say something very, very silly?---more than usual?’ inquired Dora, peeping over my shoulder into my face.
‘What wonderful thing is that?’ said I.
‘Please let me hold the pens,’ said Dora.‘I want to have something to do with all those many hours when you are so industrious. May I hold the pens?’
The remembrance of her pretty joy when I said yes, brings tears into my eyes.The next time I sat down to write, and regularly afterwards, she sat in her old place,with a spare bundle of pens at her side. Her triumph in this connexion with my work,and her delight when I wanted a new pen--which I very often feigned to do--suggested to me a new way of pleasing my child-wife.I occasionally made a pretence of wanting a page or two of manuscript copied.Then Dora was in her glory. The preparations she made for this great work, the aprons she put on,the bibs she borrowed from the kitchen to keep off the ink, the time she took,the innumerable stoppages she made to have a laugh with Jip as if he understood it all,her conviction that her work was incomplete unless she signed her name at the end,and the way in which she would bring it to me, like a school-copy, and then, when I praised it,clasp me round the neck, are touching recollections to me,simple as they might appear to other men.
She took possession of the keys soon after this,and went jingling about the house with the whole bunch in a little basket,tied to her slender waist. I seldom found that the places to which they belonged were locked,or that they were of any use except as a plaything for Jip--but Dora was pleased,and that pleased me. She was quite satisfied that a good deal was effected by this make-belief of housekeeping;and was as merry as if we had been keeping a baby-house, for a joke.
So we went on. Dora was hardly less affectionate to my aunt than to me,and often told her of the time when she was afraid she was ‘a cross old thing’.I never saw my aunt unbend more systematically to anyone. She courted Jip,though Jip never responded; listened, day after day, to the guitar,though I am afraid she had no taste for music; never attacked the Incapables,though the temptation must have been severe; went wonderful distances on foot to purchase,as surprises, any trifles that she found out Dora wanted; and never came in by the garden,and missed her from the room, but she would call out, at the foot of the stairs,in a voice that sounded cheerfully all over the house:
‘Where’s Little Blossom?’
CHAPTER 45. MR. DICK FULFILS MY AUNT’S PREDICTIONS
It was some time now, since I had left the Doctor. Living in his neighbourhood,I saw him frequently; and we all went to his house on two or three occasions to dinner or tea.The Old Soldier was in permanent quarters under the Doctor’s roof.She was exactly the same as ever, and the same immortal butterflies hovered over her cap.
Like some other mothers, whom I have known in the course of my life, Mrs.Markleham was far more fond of pleasure than her daughter was.She required a great deal of amusement, and, like a deep old soldier, pretended,in consulting her own inclinations, to be devoting herself to her child.The Doctor’s desire that Annie should be entertained,was therefore particularly acceptable to this excellent parent;who expressed unqualified approval of his discretion.
I have no doubt, indeed, that she probed the Doctor’s wound without knowing it.Meaning nothing but a certain matured frivolity and selfishness,not always inseparable from full-blown years,I think she confirmed him in his fear that he was a constraint upon his young wife,and that there was no congeniality of feeling between them,by so strongly commending his design of lightening the load of her life.
‘My dear soul,’ she said to him one day when I was present,‘you know there is no doubt it would be a little pokey for Annie to be always shut up here.’
The Doctor nodded his benevolent head. ‘When she comes to her mother’s age,’ said Mrs. Markleham,with a flourish of her fan, ‘then it’ll be another thing. You might put ME into a Jail,with genteel society and a rubber, and I should never care to come out. But I am not Annie, you know; and Annie is not her mother.’
‘Surely, surely,’ said the Doctor.
‘You are the best of creatures--no, I beg your pardon!’ for the Doctor made a gesture of deprecation, ‘I must say before your face,as I always say behind your back, you are the best of creatures; but of course you don’t--now do you?---enter into the same pursuits and fancies as Annie?’
‘No,’ said the Doctor, in a sorrowful tone.
‘No, of course not,’ retorted the Old Soldier. ‘Take your Dictionary, for example. What a useful work a Dictionary is!What a necessary work!The meanings of words!Without Doctor Johnson, or somebody of that sort,we might have been at this present moment calling an Italian-iron, a bedstead.But we can’t expect a Dictionary--especially when it’s making--to interest Annie, can we?’
The Doctor shook his head.
‘And that’s why I so much approve,’ said Mrs. Markleham,tapping him on the shoulder with her shut-up fan, ‘of your thoughtfulness.It shows that you don’t expect, as many elderly people do expect, old heads on young shoulders.You have studied Annie’s character, and you understand it. That’s what I find so charming!’
Even the calm and patient face of Doctor Strong expressed some little sense of pain, I thought,under the infliction of these compliments.
‘Therefore, my dear Doctor,’ said the Old Soldier, giving him several affectionate taps,‘you may command me, at all times and seasons. Now,do understand that I am entirely at your service. I am ready to go with Annie to operas, concerts,exhibitions, all kinds of places; and you shall never find that I am tired. Duty, my dear Doctor,before every consideration in the universe!’
She was as good as her word. She was one of those people who can bear a great deal of pleasure,and she never flinched in her perseverance in the cause.She seldom got hold of the newspaper (which she settled herself down in the softest chair in the house to read through an eye-glass,every day, for two hours), but she found out something that she was certain Annie would like to see.It was in vain for Annie to protest that she was weary of such things.Her mother’s remonstrance always was, ‘Now, my dear Annie, I am sure you know better;and I must tell you, my love, that you are not making a proper return for the kindness of Doctor Strong. ’
This was usually said in the Doctor’s presence,and appeared to me to constitute Annie’s principal inducement for withdrawing her objections when she made any.But in general she resigned herself to her mother, and went where the Old Soldier would.
It rarely happened now that Mr. Maldon accompanied them.Sometimes my aunt and Dora were invited to do so, and accepted the invitation.Sometimes Dora only was asked. The time had been, when I should have been uneasy in her going;but reflection on what had passed that former night in the Doctor’s study,had made a change in my mistrust. I believed that the Doctor was right, and I had no worse suspicions.
My aunt rubbed her nose sometimes when she happened to be alone with me,and said she couldn’t make it out; she wished they were happier;she didn’t think our military friend (so she always called the Old Soldier) mended the matter at all.My aunt further expressed her opinion, ‘that if our military friend would cut off those butterflies,and give ‘em to the chimney-sweepers for May-day,it would look like the beginning of something sensible on her part.’
But her abiding reliance was on Mr. Dick. That man had evidently an idea in his head, she said;and if he could only once pen it up into a corner, which was his great difficulty,he would distinguish himself in some extraordinary manner.
Unconscious of this prediction, Mr. Dick continued to occupy precisely the same ground in reference to the Doctor and to Mrs.Strong. He seemed neither to advance nor to recede.He appeared to have settled into his original foundation, like a building;and I must confess that my faith in his ever Moving,was not much greater than if he had been a building.
But one night, when I had been married some months, Mr. Dick put his head into the parlour,where I was writing alone (Dora having gone out with my aunt to take tea with the two little birds), and said, with a significant cough:
‘You couldn’t speak to me without inconveniencing yourself, Trotwood, I am afraid?’
‘Certainly, Mr. Dick,’ said I; ‘come in!’
‘Trotwood,’ said Mr. Dick, laying his finger on the side of his nose,after he had shaken hands with me. ‘Before I sit down, I wish to make an observation. You know your aunt?’
‘A little,’ I replied.
‘She is the most wonderful woman in the world, sir!’
After the delivery of this communication, which he shot out of himself as if he were loaded with it,Mr. Dick sat down with greater gravity than usual, and looked at me.
‘Now, boy,’ said Mr. Dick, ‘I am going to put a question to you.’
‘As many as you please,’ said I.
‘What do you consider me, sir?’ asked Mr. Dick, folding his arms.
‘A dear old friend,’ said I. ‘Thank you, Trotwood,’ returned Mr. Dick, laughing,and reaching across in high glee to shake hands with me. ‘But I mean, boy,’ resuming his gravity,‘what do you consider me in this respect?’ touching his forehead.
I was puzzled how to answer, but he helped me with a word.
‘Weak?’ said Mr. Dick.
‘Well,’ I replied, dubiously. ‘Rather so.’
‘Exactly!’ cried Mr. Dick, who seemed quite enchanted by my reply. ‘That is, Trotwood,when they took some of the trouble out of you-know-who’s head, and put it you know where,there was a--’ Mr. Dick made his two hands revolve very fast about each other a great number of times,and then brought them into collision, and rolled them over and over one another,to express confusion. ‘There was that sort of thing done to me somehow. Eh?’
I nodded at him, and he nodded back again.
‘In short, boy,’ said Mr. Dick, dropping his voice to a whisper, ‘I am simple.’
I would have qualified that conclusion, but he stopped me.
‘Yes, I am!She pretends I am not. She won’t hear of it; but I am. I know I am. If she hadn’t stood my friend,sir, I should have been shut up, to lead a dismal life these many years. But I’ll provide for her!I never spend the copying money. I put it in a box. I have made a will. I’ll leave it all to her. She shall be rich--noble!’
Mr. Dick took out his pocket-handkerchief, and wiped his eyes. He then folded it up with great care,pressed it smooth between his two hands, put it in his pocket, and seemed to put my aunt away with it.
‘Now you are a scholar, Trotwood,’ said Mr. Dick. ‘You are a fine scholar.You know what a learned man, what a great man, the Doctor is.You know what honour he has always done me. Not proud in his wisdom. Humble,humble--condescending even to poor Dick, who is simple and knows nothing. I have sent his name up,on a scrap of paper, to the kite, along the string, when it has been in the sky, among the larks.The kite has been glad to receive it, sir, and the sky has been brighter with it.’
I delighted him by saying, most heartily,that the Doctor was deserving of our best respect and highest esteem.
‘And his beautiful wife is a star,’ said Mr. Dick. ‘A shining star. I have seen her shine, sir. But,’ bringing his chair nearer, and laying one hand upon my knee--‘clouds, sir--clouds.’
I answered the solicitude which his face expressed, by conveying the same expression into my own, and shaking my head.
‘What clouds?’ said Mr. Dick.
He looked so wistfully into my face, and was so anxious to understand,that I took great pains to answer him slowly and distinctly,as I might have entered on an explanation to a child.
‘There is some unfortunate division between them,’ I replied. ‘Some unhappy cause of separation.A secret. It may be inseparable from the discrepancy in their years.It may have grown up out of almost nothing.’
Mr. Dick, who had told off every sentence with a thoughtful nod, paused when I had done,and sat considering, with his eyes upon my face, and his hand upon my knee.
‘Doctor not angry with her, Trotwood?’ he said, after some time.
‘No. Devoted to her.’
‘Then, I have got it, boy!’ said Mr. Dick.
The sudden exultation with which he slapped me on the knee, and leaned back in his chair,with his eyebrows lifted up as high as he could possibly lift them,made me think him farther out of his wits than ever. He became as suddenly grave again,and leaning forward as before, said--first respectfully taking out his pocket-handkerchief, as if it really did represent my aunt:
‘Most wonderful woman in the world, Trotwood. Why has she done nothing to set things right?’
‘Too delicate and difficult a subject for such interference,’ I replied.
‘Fine scholar,’ said Mr. Dick, touching me with his finger. ‘Why has HE done nothing?’
‘For the same reason,’ I returned.
‘Then, I have got it, boy!’ said Mr. Dick. And he stood up before me, more exultingly than before, nodding his head,and striking himself repeatedly upon the breast,until one might have supposed that he had nearly nodded and struck all the breath out of his body.
‘A poor fellow with a craze, sir,’ said Mr. Dick, ‘a simpleton,a weak-minded person--present company, you know!’ striking himself again, ‘may do what wonderful people may not do. I’ll bring them together, boy.I’ll try. They’ll not blame me. They’ll not object to me. They’ll not mind what I do,if it’s wrong. I’m only Mr. Dick. And who minds Dick?Dick’s nobody!Whoo!’ He blew a slight, contemptuous breath, as if he blew himself away.
It was fortunate he had proceeded so far with his mystery,for we heard the coach stop at the little garden gate, which brought my aunt and Dora home.
‘Not a word, boy!’ he pursued in a whisper; ‘leave all the blame with Dick--simple Dick--mad Dick.I have been thinking, sir, for some time, that I was getting it, and now I have got it.After what you have said to me, I am sure I have got it. All right!’ Not another word did Mr. Dick utter on the subject;but he made a very telegraph of himself for the next half-hour (to the great disturbance of my aunt’s mind), to enjoin inviolable secrecy on me.
To my surprise, I heard no more about it for some two or three weeks,though I was sufficiently interested in the result of his endeavours;descrying a strange gleam of good sense--I say nothing of good feeling,for that he always exhibited--in the conclusion to which he had come. At last I began to believe,that, in the flighty and unsettled state of his mind,he had either forgotten his intention or abandoned it.
One fair evening, when Dora was not inclined to go out,my aunt and I strolled up to the Doctor’s cottage. It was autumn,when there were no debates to vex the evening air;and I remember how the leaves smelt like our garden at Blunderstone as we trod them under foot,and how the old, unhappy feeling, seemed to go by, on the sighing wind.
It was twilight when we reached the cottage. Mrs. Strong was just coming out of the garden,where Mr. Dick yet lingered, busy with his knife, helping the gardener to point some stakes.The Doctor was engaged with someone in his study; but the visitor would be gone directly, Mrs.Strong said, and begged us to remain and see him. We went into the drawing-room with her,and sat down by the darkening window. There was never any ceremony about the visits of such old friends and neighbours as we were.
We had not sat here many minutes, when Mrs. Markleham,who usually contrived to be in a fuss about something, came bustling in,with her newspaper in her hand, and said, out of breath, ‘My goodness gracious, Annie,why didn’t you tell me there was someone in the Study!’
‘My dear mama,’ she quietly returned, ‘how could I know that you desired the information?’
‘Desired the information!’ said Mrs. Markleham, sinking on the sofa. ‘I never had such a turn in all my life!’
‘Have you been to the Study, then, mama?’ asked Annie.
‘BEEN to the Study, my dear!’ she returned emphatically. ‘Indeed I have!I came upon the amiable creature--if you’ll imagine my feelings,Miss Trotwood and David--in the act of making his will.’
Her daughter looked round from the window quickly.
‘In the act, my dear Annie,’ repeated Mrs. Markleham,spreading the newspaper on her lap like a table-cloth, and patting her hands upon it,‘of making his last Will and Testament. The foresight and affection of the dear!I must tell you how it was. I really must, in justice to the darling--for he is nothing less!--tell you how it was. Perhaps you know, Miss Trotwood,that there is never a candle lighted in this house,until one’s eyes are literally falling out of one’s head with being stretched to read the paper.And that there is not a chair in this house, in which a paper can be what I call, read,except one in the Study. This took me to the Study, where I saw a light. I opened the door.In company with the dear Doctor were two professional people, evidently connected with the law,and they were all three standing at the table: the darling Doctor pen in hand.“This simply expresses then,” said the Doctor--Annie, my love,attend to the very words--“this simply expresses then, gentlemen, the confidence I have in Mrs.Strong, and gives her all unconditionally?” One of the professional people replied, “And gives her all unconditionally.” Upon that,with the natural feelings of a mother, I said, “Good God, I beg your pardon!” fell over the door-step, and came away through the little back passage where the pantry is.’
Mrs. Strong opened the window, and went out into the verandah,where she stood leaning against a pillar.
‘But now isn’t it, Miss Trotwood, isn’t it, David, invigorating,’ said Mrs. Markleham,mechanically following her with her eyes, ‘to find a man at Doctor Strong’s time of life,with the strength of mind to do this kind of thing?It only shows how right I was. I said to Annie,when Doctor Strong paid a very flattering visit to myself,and made her the subject of a declaration and an offer, I said, “My dear,there is no doubt whatever, in my opinion, with reference to a suitable provision for you,that Doctor Strong will do more than he binds himself to do.”’
Here the bell rang, and we heard the sound of the visitors’ feet as they went out.
‘It’s all over, no doubt,’ said the Old Soldier, after listening; ‘the dear creature has signed,sealed, and delivered, and his mind’s at rest. Well it may be!What a mind!Annie, my love, I am going to the Study with my paper, for I am a poor creature without news.Miss Trotwood, David, pray come and see the Doctor.’
I was conscious of Mr. Dick’s standing in the shadow of the room, shutting up his knife,when we accompanied her to the Study; and of my aunt’s rubbing her nose violently, by the way,as a mild vent for her intolerance of our military friend; but who got first into the Study,or how Mrs. Markleham settled herself in a moment in her easy-chair,or how my aunt and I came to be left together near the door (unless her eyes were quicker than mine,and she held me back), I have forgotten, if I ever knew. But this I know,--that we saw the Doctor before he saw us, sitting at his table,among the folio volumes in which he delighted, resting his head calmly on his hand. That,in the same moment, we saw Mrs. Strong glide in, pale and trembling. That Mr.Dick supported her on his arm. That he laid his other hand upon the Doctor’s arm,causing him to look up with an abstracted air. That, as the Doctor moved his head,his wife dropped down on one knee at his feet, and, with her hands imploringly lifted,fixed upon his face the memorable look I had never forgotten. That at this sight Mrs.Markleham dropped the newspaper, and stared more like a figure-head intended for a ship to be called The Astonishment, than anything else I can think of.
The gentleness of the Doctor’s manner and surprise,the dignity that mingled with the supplicating attitude of his wife, the amiable concern of Mr.Dick, and the earnestness with which my aunt said to herself, ‘That man mad!’ (triumphantly expressive of the misery from which she had saved him)--I see and hear,rather than remember, as I write about it.
‘Doctor!’ said Mr. Dick. ‘What is it that’s amiss?Look here!’
‘Annie!’ cried the Doctor. ‘Not at my feet, my dear!’
‘Yes!’ she said. ‘I beg and pray that no one will leave the room!Oh, my husband and father, break this long silence.Let us both know what it is that has come between us!’
Mrs. Markleham, by this time recovering the power of speech,and seeming to swell with family pride and motherly indignation, here exclaimed, ‘Annie,get up immediately, and don’t disgrace everybody belonging to you by humbling yourself like that,unless you wish to see me go out of my mind on the spot!’
‘Mama!’ returned Annie. ‘Waste no words on me, for my appeal is to my husband, and even you are nothing here.’
‘Nothing!’ exclaimed Mrs. Markleham. ‘Me, nothing!The child has taken leave of her senses. Please to get me a glass of water!’
I was too attentive to the Doctor and his wife, to give any heed to this request;and it made no impression on anybody else; so Mrs. Markleham panted, stared, and fanned herself.
‘Annie!’ said the Doctor, tenderly taking her in his hands. ‘My dear!If any unavoidable change has come, in the sequence of time, upon our married life,you are not to blame. The fault is mine, and only mine. There is no change in my affection,admiration, and respect. I wish to make you happy. I truly love and honour you. Rise, Annie, pray!’
But she did not rise. After looking at him for a little while, she sank down closer to him,laid her arm across his knee, and dropping her head upon it, said:
‘If I have any friend here, who can speak one word for me, or for my husband in this matter;if I have any friend here, who can give a voice to any suspicion that my heart has sometimes whispered to me;if I have any friend here, who honours my husband, or has ever cared for me,and has anything within his knowledge, no matter what it is, that may help to mediate between us, I implore that friend to speak!’
There was a profound silence. After a few moments of painful hesitation, I broke the silence.
‘Mrs. Strong,’ I said, ‘there is something within my knowledge,which I have been earnestly entreated by Doctor Strong to conceal,and have concealed until tonight. But, I believe the time has come when it would be mistaken faith and delicacy to conceal it any longer,and when your appeal absolves me from his injunction.’
She turned her face towards me for a moment, and I knew that I was right.I could not have resisted its entreaty, if the assurance that it gave me had been less convincing.
‘Our future peace,’ she said, ‘may be in your hands.I trust it confidently to your not suppressing anything. I know beforehand that nothing you,or anyone, can tell me, will show my husband’s noble heart in any other light than one.Howsoever it may seem to you to touch me, disregard that. I will speak for myself, before him, and before God afterwards.’
Thus earnestly besought, I made no reference to the Doctor for his permission, but,without any other compromise of the truth than a little softening of the coarseness of Uriah Heep,related plainly what had passed in that same room that night. The staring of Mrs.Markleham during the whole narration, and the shrill,sharp interjections with which she occasionally interrupted it, defy description.
When I had finished, Annie remained, for some few moments, silent, with her head bent down,as I have described. Then, she took the Doctor’s hand (he was sitting in the same attitude as when we had entered the room),and pressed it to her breast, and kissed it. Mr. Dick softly raised her; and she stood,when she began to speak, leaning on him,and looking down upon her husband--from whom she never turned her eyes.
‘All that has ever been in my mind, since I was married,’ she said in a low, submissive,tender voice, ‘I will lay bare before you. I could not live and have one reservation, knowing what I know now.’
‘Nay, Annie,’ said the Doctor, mildly, ‘I have never doubted you, my child. There is no need; indeed there is no need, my dear.’
‘There is great need,’ she answered, in the same way,‘that I should open my whole heart before the soul of generosity and truth, whom, year by year,and day by day, I have loved and venerated more and more, as Heaven knows!’
‘Really,’ interrupted Mrs. Markleham, ‘if I have any discretion at all--’
(‘Which you haven’t, you Marplot,’ observed my aunt,in an indignant whisper.) --‘I must be permitted to observe that it cannot be requisite to enter into these details. ’
‘No one but my husband can judge of that, mama,’ said Annie without removing her eyes from his face,‘and he will hear me. If I say anything to give you pain, mama, forgive me.I have borne pain first, often and long, myself.’
‘Upon my word!’ gasped Mrs. Markleham.
‘When I was very young,’ said Annie, ‘quite a little child,my first associations with knowledge of any kind were inseparable from a patient friend and teacher--the friend of my dead father--who was always dear to me.I can remember nothing that I know, without remembering him.He stored my mind with its first treasures, and stamped his character upon them all.They never could have been, I think, as good as they have been to me,if I had taken them from any other hands.’
‘Makes her mother nothing!’ exclaimed Mrs. Markleham.