She then took a longer time for consideration.Should she proceed no farther?—should she let it pass, and seem to suspect nothing?—Perhaps Harriet might think her cold or angry if she did;or perhaps if she were totally silent,it might only drive Harriet into asking her to hear too much;and against any thing like such an unreserve as had been,such an open and frequent discussion of hopes and chances,she was perfectly resolved.—She believed it would be wiser for her to say and know at once, all that she meant to say and know. Plain dealing was always best. She had previously determined how far she would proceed, on any application of the sort; and it would be safer for both, to have the judicious law of her own brain laid down with speed.—She was decided, and thus spoke—
“Harriet, I will not affect to be in doubt of your meaning.Your resolution, or rather your expectation of never marrying,results from an idea that the person whom you might prefer,would be too greatly your superior in situation to think of you. Is not it so?”
“Oh!Miss Woodhouse, believe me I have not the presumption to suppose—Indeed I am not so mad.—But it is a pleasure to me to admire him at a distance—and to think of his infinite superiority to all the rest of the world, with the gratitude, wonder, and veneration, which are so proper, in me especially.”
“I am not at all surprized at you, Harriet.The service he rendered you was enough to warm your heart. ”
“Service!oh!it was such an inexpressible obligation!—The very recollection of it,and all that I felt at the time—when I saw him coming—his noble look—and my wretchedness before. Such a change!In one moment such a change!From perfect misery to perfect happiness!”
“It is very natural. It is natural,and it is honourable.—Yes, honourable, I think,to chuse so well and so gratefully.—But that it will be a fortunate preference is more than I can promise. I do not advise you to give way to it, Harriet. I do not by any means engage for its being returned. Consider what you are about. Perhaps it will be wisest in you to check your feelings while you can: at any rate do not let them carry you far, unless you are persuaded of his liking you. Be observant of him. Let his behaviour be the guide of your sensations. I give you this caution now, because I shall never speak to you again on the subject. I am determined against all interference. Henceforward I know nothing of the matter. Let no name ever pass our lips. We were very wrong before; we will be cautious now.—He is your superior, no doubt, and there do seem objections and obstacles of a very serious nature; but yet, Harriet, more wonderful things have taken place, there have been matches of greater disparity. But take care of yourself. I would not have you too sanguine; though, however it may end, be assured your raising your thoughts to _him_, is a mark of good taste which I shall always know how to value.”
Harriet kissed her hand in silent and submissive gratitude.Emma was very decided in thinking such an attachment no bad thing for her friend. Its tendency would be to raise and refine her mind—and it must be saving her from the danger of degradation.
CHAPTER V
In this state of schemes, and hopes, and connivance,June opened upon Hartfield.To Highbury in general it brought no material change.The Eltons were still talking of a visit from the Sucklings,and of the use to be made of their barouche-landau;and Jane Fairfax was still at her grandmother’s;and as the return of the Campbells from Ireland was again delayed,and August, instead of Midsummer, fixed for it,she was likely to remain there full two months longer,provided at least she were able to defeat Mrs.Elton’s activity in her service,and save herself from being hurried into a delightful situation against her will.
Mr. Knightley, who, for some reason best known to himself,had certainly taken an early dislike to Frank Churchill,was only growing to dislike him more.He began to suspect him of some double dealing in his pursuit of Emma.That Emma was his object appeared indisputable.Every thing declared it; his own attentions,his father’s hints,his mother-in-law’s guarded silence;it was all in unison; words, conduct, discretion,and indiscretion, told the same story.But while so many were devoting him to Emma,and Emma herself making him over to Harriet, Mr.Knightley began to suspect him of some inclination to trifle with Jane Fairfax.He could not understand it;but there were symptoms of intelligence between them—he thought so at least—symptoms of admiration on his side, which, having once observed, he could not persuade himself to think entirely void of meaning, however he might wish to escape any of Emma’s errors of imagination. _She_ was not present when the suspicion first arose. He was dining with the Randalls family, and Jane, at the Eltons’; and he had seen a look, more than a single look, at Miss Fairfax, which, from the admirer of Miss Woodhouse, seemed somewhat out of place. When he was again in their company, he could not help remembering what he had seen; nor could he avoid observations which, unless it were like Cowper and his fire at twilight,
“Myself creating what I saw,”
brought him yet stronger suspicion of there being a something of private liking,of private understanding even,between Frank Churchill and Jane.
He had walked up one day after dinner,as he very often did,to spend his evening at Hartfield.Emma and Harriet were going to walk; he joined them;and, on returning, they fell in with a larger party,who, like themselves,judged it wisest to take their exercise early,as the weather threatened rain; Mr. and Mrs.Weston and their son, Miss Bates and her niece,who had accidentally met. They all united; and,on reaching Hartfield gates, Emma,who knew it was exactly the sort of visiting that would be welcome to her father, pressed them all to go in and drink tea with him. The Randalls party agreed to it immediately; and after a pretty long speech from Miss Bates, which few persons listened to, she also found it possible to accept dear Miss Woodhouse’s most obliging invitation.
As they were turning into the grounds, Mr.Perry passed by on horseback.The gentlemen spoke of his horse.
“By the bye,” said Frank Churchill to Mrs.Weston presently, “what became of Mr.Perry’s plan of setting up his carriage?”
Mrs. Weston looked surprized, and said,“I did not know that he ever had any such plan.”
“Nay, I had it from you.You wrote me word of it three months ago.”
“Me!impossible!”
“Indeed you did. I remember it perfectly.You mentioned it as what was certainly to be very soon.Mrs. Perry had told somebody,and was extremely happy about it.It was owing to _her_ persuasion,as she thought his being out in bad weather did him a great deal of harm.You must remember it now?”
“Upon my word I never heard of it till this moment.”