How soon he had walked himself into the proper resolution,however, how soon an opportunity of exercising it occurred,in what manner he expressed himself,and how he was received, need not be particularly told.This only need be said;—that when they all sat down to table at four o’clock,about three hours after his arrival,he had secured his lady, engaged her mother’s consent,and was not only in the rapturous profession of the lover,but, in the reality of reason and truth,one of the happiest of men.His situation indeed was more than commonly joyful.He had more than the ordinary triumph of accepted love to swell his heart,and raise his spirits.He was released without any reproach to himself,from an entanglement which had long formed his misery,from a woman whom he had long ceased to love;—and elevated at once to that security with another,which he must have thought of almost with despair,as soon as he had learnt to consider it with desire.He was brought, not from doubt or suspense,but from misery to happiness;—and the change was openly spoken in such a genuine,flowing, grateful cheerfulness,as his friends had never witnessed in him before.
His heart was now open to Elinor, all its weaknesses,all its errors confessed,and his first boyish attachment to Lucy treated with all the philosophic dignity of twenty-four.
“It was a foolish, idle inclination on my side,” said he, “the consequence of ignorance of the world,and want of employment.Had my mother given me some active profession when I was removed at eighteen from the care of Mr. Pratt, I think, nay, I am sure, it would never have happened; for though I left Longstaple with what I thought, at the time, a most unconquerable preference for his niece, yet had I then had any pursuit, any object to engage my time and keep me at a distance from her for a few months, I should very soon have outgrown the fancied attachment, especially by mixing more with the world, as in such case I must have done. But instead of having any thing to do, instead of having any profession chosen for me, or being allowed to chuse any myself, I returned home to be completely idle; and for the first twelvemonth afterwards I had not even the nominal employment, which belonging to the university would have given me; for I was not entered at Oxford till I was nineteen. I had therefore nothing in the world to do, but to fancy myself in love; and as my mother did not make my home in every respect comfortable, as I had no friend, no companion in my brother, and disliked new acquaintance, it was not unnatural for me to be very often at Longstaple, where I always felt myself at home, and was always sure of a welcome; and accordingly I spent the greatest part of my time there from eighteen to nineteen: Lucy appeared everything that was amiable and obliging. She was pretty too—at least I thought so _then;_ and I had seen so little of other women, that I could make no comparisons, and see no defects. Considering everything, therefore, I hope, foolish as our engagement was, foolish as it has since in every way been proved, it was not at the time an unnatural or an inexcusable piece of folly.”
The change which a few hours had wrought in the minds and the happiness of the Dashwoods, was such—so great—as promised them all, the satisfaction of a sleepless night. Mrs. Dashwood, too happy to be comfortable, knew not how to love Edward, nor praise Elinor enough, how to be enough thankful for his release without wounding his delicacy, nor how at once to give them leisure for unrestrained conversation together, and yet enjoy, as she wished, the sight and society of both.
Marianne could speak _her_ happiness only by tears.Comparisons would occur—regrets would arise;and her joy, though sincere as her love for her sister,was of a kind to give her neither spirits nor language.
But Elinor—how are _her_ feelings to be described?From the moment of learning that Lucy was married to another,that Edward was free,to the moment of his justifying the hopes which had so instantly followed,she was every thing by turns but tranquil.But when the second moment had passed,when she found every doubt, every solicitude removed,compared her situation with what so lately it had been,—saw him honourably released from his former engagement,—saw him instantly profiting by the release,to address herself and declare an affection as tender,as constant as she had ever supposed it to be,—she was oppressed, she was overcome by her own felicity;and happily disposed as is the human mind to be easily familiarized with any change for the better, it required several hours to give sedateness to her spirits, or any degree of tranquillity to her heart.
Edward was now fixed at the cottage at least for a week;—for whatever other claims might be made on him,it was impossible that less than a week should be given up to the enjoyment of Elinor’s company, or suffice to say half that was to be said of the past, the present, and the future;—for though a very few hours spent in the hard labor of incessant talking will despatch more subjects than can really be in common between any two rational creatures, yet with lovers it is different. Between _them_ no subject is finished, no communication is even made, till it has been made at least twenty times over.
Lucy’s marriage, the unceasing and reasonable wonder among them all,formed of course one of the earliest discussions of the lovers;—and Elinor’s particular knowledge of each party made it appear to her in every view, as one of the most extraordinary and unaccountable circumstances she had ever heard. How they could be thrown together, and by what attraction Robert could be drawn on to marry a girl, of whose beauty she had herself heard him speak without any admiration,—a girl too already engaged to his brother, and on whose account that brother had been thrown off by his family—it was beyond her comprehension to make out. To her own heart it was a delightful affair, to her imagination it was even a ridiculous one, but to her reason, her judgment, it was completely a puzzle.
Edward could only attempt an explanation by supposing,that, perhaps, at first accidentally meeting,the vanity of the one had been so worked on by the flattery of the other,as to lead by degrees to all the rest.Elinor remembered what Robert had told her in Harley Street,of his opinion of what his own mediation in his brother’s affairs might have done, if applied to in time. She repeated it to Edward.
“_That_ was exactly like Robert,” was his immediate observation. “And _that_,” he presently added,“might perhaps be in _his_ head when the acquaintance between them first began.And Lucy perhaps at first might think only of procuring his good offices in my favour. Other designs might afterward arise.”
How long it had been carrying on between them, however,he was equally at a loss with herself to make out;for at Oxford, where he had remained for choice ever since his quitting London,he had had no means of hearing of her but from herself,and her letters to the very last were neither less frequent,nor less affectionate than usual.Not the smallest suspicion, therefore,had ever occurred to prepare him for what followed;—and when at last it burst on him in a letter from Lucy herself,he had been for some time, he believed,half stupified between the wonder, the horror,and the joy of such a deliverance.He put the letter into Elinor’s hands.