Marianne’s joy was almost a degree beyond happiness,so great was the perturbation of her spirits and her impatience to be gone.Her unwillingness to quit her mother was her only restorative to calmness;and at the moment of parting her grief on that score was excessive.Her mother’s affliction was hardly less,and Elinor was the only one of the three,who seemed to consider the separation as any thing short of eternal.
Their departure took place in the first week in January.The Middletons were to follow in about a week.The Miss Steeles kept their station at the park,and were to quit it only with the rest of the family.
CHAPTER XXVI.
Elinor could not find herself in the carriage with Mrs.Jennings, and beginning a journey to London under her protection,and as her guest, without wondering at her own situation,so short had their acquaintance with that lady been,so wholly unsuited were they in age and disposition,and so many had been her objections against such a measure only a few days before!But these objections had all,with that happy ardour of youth which Marianne and her mother equally shared,been overcome or overlooked; and Elinor,in spite of every occasional doubt of Willoughby’s constancy,could not witness the rapture of delightful expectation which filled the whole soul and beamed in the eyes of Marianne, without feeling how blank was her own prospect, how cheerless her own state of mind in the comparison, and how gladly she would engage in the solicitude of Marianne’s situation to have the same animating object in view, the same possibility of hope. A short, a very short time however must now decide what Willoughby’s intentions were; in all probability he was already in town. Marianne’s eagerness to be gone declared her dependence on finding him there; and Elinor was resolved not only upon gaining every new light as to his character which her own observation or the intelligence of others could give her, but likewise upon watching his behaviour to her sister with such zealous attention, as to ascertain what he was and what he meant, before many meetings had taken place. Should the result of her observations be unfavourable, she was determined at all events to open the eyes of her sister; should it be otherwise, her exertions would be of a different nature—she must then learn to avoid every selfish comparison, and banish every regret which might lessen her satisfaction in the happiness of Marianne.
They were three days on their journey,and Marianne’s behaviour as they travelled was a happy specimen of what future complaisance and companionableness to Mrs. Jennings might be expected to be. She sat in silence almost all the way, wrapt in her own meditations, and scarcely ever voluntarily speaking, except when any object of picturesque beauty within their view drew from her an exclamation of delight exclusively addressed to her sister. To atone for this conduct therefore, Elinor took immediate possession of the post of civility which she had assigned herself, behaved with the greatest attention to Mrs. Jennings, talked with her, laughed with her, and listened to her whenever she could; and Mrs. Jennings on her side treated them both with all possible kindness, was solicitous on every occasion for their ease and enjoyment, and only disturbed that she could not make them choose their own dinners at the inn, nor extort a confession of their preferring salmon to cod, or boiled fowls to veal cutlets. They reached town by three o’clock the third day, glad to be released, after such a journey, from the confinement of a carriage, and ready to enjoy all the luxury of a good fire.
The house was handsome, and handsomely fitted up,and the young ladies were immediately put in possession of a very comfortable apartment. It had formerly been Charlotte’s, and over the mantelpiece still hung a landscape in coloured silks of her performance, in proof of her having spent seven years at a great school in town to some effect.
As dinner was not to be ready in less than two hours from their arrival,Elinor determined to employ the interval in writing to her mother,and sat down for that purpose.In a few moments Marianne did the same.“_I_ am writing home, Marianne,” said Elinor;“had not you better defer your letter for a day or two?”
“I am _not_ going to write to my mother,” replied Marianne, hastily,and as if wishing to avoid any farther inquiry.Elinor said no more;it immediately struck her that she must then be writing to Willoughby;and the conclusion which as instantly followed was,that, however mysteriously they might wish to conduct the affair,they must be engaged. This conviction,though not entirely satisfactory, gave her pleasure,and she continued her letter with greater alacrity.Marianne’s was finished in a very few minutes;in length it could be no more than a note;it was then folded up, sealed,and directed with eager rapidity.Elinor thought she could distinguish a large W in the direction;and no sooner was it complete than Marianne,ringing the bell, requested the footman who answered it to get that letter conveyed for her to the two-penny post. This decided the matter at once.
Her spirits still continued very high;but there was a flutter in them which prevented their giving much pleasure to her sister, and this agitation increased as the evening drew on. She could scarcely eat any dinner, and when they afterwards returned to the drawing room, seemed anxiously listening to the sound of every carriage.
It was a great satisfaction to Elinor that Mrs.Jennings, by being much engaged in her own room,could see little of what was passing.The tea things were brought in,and already had Marianne been disappointed more than once by a rap at a neighbouring door, when a loud one was suddenly heard which could not be mistaken for one at any other house, Elinor felt secure of its announcing Willoughby’s approach, and Marianne, starting up, moved towards the door. Every thing was silent; this could not be borne many seconds; she opened the door, advanced a few steps towards the stairs, and after listening half a minute, returned into the room in all the agitation which a conviction of having heard him would naturally produce; in the ecstasy of her feelings at that instant she could not help exclaiming, “Oh, Elinor, it is Willoughby, indeed it is!” and seemed almost ready to throw herself into his arms,when Colonel Brandon appeared.
It was too great a shock to be borne with calmness,and she immediately left the room.Elinor was disappointed too;but at the same time her regard for Colonel Brandon ensured his welcome with her; and she felt particularly hurt that a man so partial to her sister should perceive that she experienced nothing but grief and disappointment in seeing him. She instantly saw that it was not unnoticed by him, that he even observed Marianne as she quitted the room, with such astonishment and concern, as hardly left him the recollection of what civility demanded towards herself.
“Is your sister ill?” said he.
Elinor answered in some distress that she was,and then talked of head-aches, low spirits,and over fatigues; and of every thing to which she could decently attribute her sister’s behaviour.
He heard her with the most earnest attention,but seeming to recollect himself,said no more on the subject,and began directly to speak of his pleasure at seeing them in London,making the usual inquiries about their journey,and the friends they had left behind.